These are the moments far too rare for heavy handed words
Okay...please...no really mean comments...I'm just venting now...cuz I have a lot of things on my mind....It's kinda long, so don't bother....
This song makes me think....Am I meant to be with anyone EVER in my life? I've faced nothing by rejection and meaningless relationships...I want something REAL. I know there's something more out there for me...what it is...I dunno just yet, but I'll find it someday. It makes me think...all thoes times I would hug Josh, and I would squeze extra hard for extra long because I didn't want him to leave...he seemed to be the first thing in my life that was so....beautiful, so temporary, so fragile that I held it so very dear. If only I had the courage to tell him how I feel...
"Run" by Snow Patrol
I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done
And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads
Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Someday I hope I can tell him....Although by the time I do it'll probably be too late...He'll probably find someone who'll make him so happy, and I'll watch them walk down the isle, her in a beautiful gown, the white around her making her look angelic, in a grove full of blooming apple trees, the petals falling softly to earth, like the tears of an angel....and him, standing there, all the hope of his life, held frozen there in his eyes. DAMMIT!!! WHY AM I SUCH A DAMN SISSY!!!! I swear, if it had been anyone else...they would have told him by now...I mean COME ON!!! when just about everyone around you can see it that you like each other....SOMEONE'S GOTTA MOVE!!!....right? I mean....it should have been me....I should have moved. But no...I waited....and waited....