There Goes My Life

[djchuck]

So it seems like all I can do lately is alienate people I like/love. All I really want to do is find some friends to hang out with and have a guy who loves me and wants to be here for me

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Your're pushing people to hard

[kidventus]

You suck.

Obviously Jordan and Chris is/are connected somehow, and obviously you're pissing off everyone around you. Why don't you stop blaiming other people and focus on thinking beyond your own selfish interest. You're wearing on people.. grow up and meet them where they are.

Re: Your're pushing people to hard

[djchuck]

At least you're honest, however critical it may sound. Being selfish has always been a big problem of mine - something I continue to battle. I guess I know what I need to do with Jordan - back off and just be a good friend. It's like you said "meet them where they are". Chris, however, is confusing. I can't exactly give him everything he wants. I need to find friendship with both and see what goes from there, right?

Re: Your're pushing people to hard

[kidventus]

Yes. Don't try to suck a sudden sweetness from unripe fruit to validate yourself.

Relationships are important.

When you're a kid you pull them out of the ground and throw them away when you're done with them.

As an adult you have to cultivate them... nuture them... they grow more slowly.

Otherwise you'll end up alone with an empty garden.

Re: Your're pushing people to hard

[djchuck]

Okay, Confucious

[justaslyfox]

Thankfully, boys do suck.
Things Jordan says sounds exactly like things I would say. I guess I never thought about how irratating they might sound.

[djchuck]

Not necessarily "irritating", but much too confusing and enigmatic. I'm not here to solve the mysteries of life - just to live mine.

Dance Through Life

[hiddenmythos]

I know I sound like an idiot saying this. But no matter what things are going to get better. Once I thought that this meant I was naive. But it really is true. If I could ever do anything for anybody it would be to reassure everyone that things get better.

Ok. Not to have any good advice guarenteed but.. Friends always are less than you thought they were. You always have to put all your effort into them just to keep them as friends. One day they'll come around and love you platonically that is.

And boys are never gonna realize how much you mean to them. Boys try to force everyone away from you. I think Jordan really likes you personally. I just think hes afraid to get so serious. Maybe he likes you too much. You never know. And if its meant to happen. It really will happen. No matter what.

And Chris will come around. Hes just jealous you don't want him back.
I warned you it would be bad advice but I'm here anyway. Come on AIM one night and we can talk!

what did we talk about?

[anonymous]

charlie baby,
first off i'm sorry if you think that i stood you up, because i didn't mean to. second off i thought we talked about this. you are an emotional person, and you want everything to happen NOW. but things just dont happen like that. dont try to rush things, becuase if you rush into something, you might wake up one morning and look into those eyes...and how do you know that you are not going to wake up and say- i'm not gay anymore. i want to be with eryn. no im just kidding. but really you do need to just take a step back, get busy with something... not boys (ok boys- but just friends). go out, have fun, flirt, have no attachment sex (ive only done it once- but it was worth the experience), just do something for charlie. eventually you will find your true love...and when that day comes, i want to be the maid of honor.
i love you-
eryn

Re: what did we talk about?

[djchuck]

Oh, Eryn! I love you so much :)
You're gonna be the bitch of honor at my gay wedding in Vermont one of these days....ahahaha

Call me!