i found it
sorry for all the spam. but i found it. the song that describes me to a tee right now....a;sodhasohsdlsvlishrliaukc i know posting lyrics is like the most emo thing ever, but i'm allowed to be emo right now..
You wanna feel loose
You wanna see how i'm abused, i see
You wanna get faded
You never wanna concentrate on me
I'm too much of an angel
I'm too much of a saint, though i can't be
I'm too much of a reject you dont expect much from
I wanna feel safe
I wanna feel like I'm not hated, too
I wanna get closer
I wanna feel the most I get from you
I'm too much on the rebound
I'm too much on the ground, though you can't be
You're always getting higher
You don't desire me
So what have I got to prove
And what have I got to lose
When you're not worth fighting for
And why am I feeling down
While you're out messing around
And you're not worth begging for
Just wanted to stop by
Just wanted to see you one last time
Just wanted to say bye
Just wanted to get you off my mind
Just wanted to fit in
But then I saw you with [her]
So what have I got to prove
And what have I got to lose
When you're not worth fighting for
And why am I feeling down
While you're out messing around
And you're not worth begging for
It's up to me
And I'm still falling
It's up to me
And I'm still calling
It's up to me and I'm still hoping
It's up to me for you to hold me
It's up to me to let you go
It's up to me
But for all you know I'm already gone
So what have I got to prove
And what have I got to lose
When you're not worth fighting for
And why am I feeling down
While you're out messing around
And you're not worth begging for
It's up to me
You wanna feel loose
You wanna see how i'm abused, i see
You wanna get faded
You never wanna concentrate on me
I'm too much of an angel
I'm too much of a saint, though i can't be
I'm too much of a reject you dont expect much from
I wanna feel safe
I wanna feel like I'm not hated, too
I wanna get closer
I wanna feel the most I get from you
I'm too much on the rebound
I'm too much on the ground, though you can't be
You're always getting higher
You don't desire me
So what have I got to prove
And what have I got to lose
When you're not worth fighting for
And why am I feeling down
While you're out messing around
And you're not worth begging for
Just wanted to stop by
Just wanted to see you one last time
Just wanted to say bye
Just wanted to get you off my mind
Just wanted to fit in
But then I saw you with [her]
So what have I got to prove
And what have I got to lose
When you're not worth fighting for
And why am I feeling down
While you're out messing around
And you're not worth begging for
It's up to me
And I'm still falling
It's up to me
And I'm still calling
It's up to me and I'm still hoping
It's up to me for you to hold me
It's up to me to let you go
It's up to me
But for all you know I'm already gone
So what have I got to prove
And what have I got to lose
When you're not worth fighting for
And why am I feeling down
While you're out messing around
And you're not worth begging for
It's up to me