I hate this feeling

[djtempest]

Its been a month since Daniel broke my heart and left me. I thought that by now I'd be over it, but it still hurts. I still find myself crying over it at night, and running scenarios through my head of how I could have made it better, of how I could have been better, of how I could have made him stay and love me . I hate this! I hate feeling so

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My Hope for You

[moonstone_fae]

I know you don't "do" country music but Garth Brooks' song "The Dance" comes to mind. The song says something about knowing you could have missed the pain but in order to do that you would have had to miss the dance.

I hope you will one day be able to remember the good without feeling the pain. I hope that one day you will know that you did not do anything wrong. Some people are just not meant to be with us forever in this life. Daniel still means a lot to you and I truly understand that. Love does not just go away when the other person tells you that it should. I am not saying you will ever not love him. I'm just hoping that one day it will be more bittersweet than heartwretching.

If it would behoove you, I'll gladly remove the pictures I have of you two together from my Flickr account. Just let me know.

I love ya Trev!

[uglygrandmother]

If I could wave my magic wand and make all the hurt go away, I would. Until such time as the pain subsides, remmeber this old crone loves you. Your gods love you, and honor you for your faithfulness.

[sterling_raptor]

It will get better with time, but a month is not really a lot of time. You have a lot of things to think about and deal with as well as process. We are here for you whenever you need to talk (once I get reliable cell reception) and we will be at the Ritual today where AJ wants to have some man time with you. :D

*Hugs and love!*

[thegreenyear]

like sterling said... a month may not be enough time. keep breathing, my dear one. i've been where you are and i know it does get easier. slowly, but it does. i absolutely promise.

PS - drugs don't help. i mean they might, temporarily, but in the long term swallowing a bunch of pills (or smoking yourself silly all the time)... just doesn't work, as i found out. the best medicine, the best magic, is to keep busy. go out, do things, see friends, get another job, stay active. no one can wave a magic wand. it takes time and distraction.

i love you, honey. hang in there.

[ivorywitch]

Your heart is not what is broken. Your expectations of what love is what was broken. Love is still the holiest occupation on the planet. If you love(d) Daniel, wish him well in pursuing whatever will make him happy if it wasn't you. Reverse the situation, what if it were you that discovered you'd make a hug mistake and knew you were going to hurt the person who loved and trusted you? I know you probably think he never cared - and that may be true, but don't let his mistake get internalized as your own. YOU did nothing wrong...except perhaps expect love to conform to your definition of it...and that's not really wrong. It's human. You are human, so is Daniel. Humans make mistakes and sometimes those mistakes hurt. But your heart is as capable as it has ever been of loving, you just have to let go of the expectation of a;ways being loved in return. Daniel doesn't have to love you back for you to heal yourself by continuing to love him, love the time you spent with him, and honor that by allowing him to move on and doing your

[sterling_raptor]

Kudos and Amen, Sister.

[djtempest]

That was the most insightful thing I've heard. Thank you.