I keep starting journal entries here

[dkaine]

and as I start writing, I begin to censor myself, uncomfortable with who may be reading this... and I say this knowing full well who I have added to my friend-list... I start thinking about what I'm writing, and get self-conscious about absolutely nothing. I start sorting through my friends and family, wondering who should be allowed to see what I

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[lordameth]

I often have the same difficulty, self-censoring, and feeling that I can't express myself for fear of who's reading and how they might choose to react, aggravating the situation rather than helping

[dkaine]

The funny thing is that it's not so much that others are definitely enjoying life more, I find that others seem to be progressing so much more... I've stagnated and even now when I have a good job, and am building a new foundation, everyone else seems to be way ahead of me in the whole progress lane. I realize that everyone has a different time line, and all that cliched nonsense people say... it's truly frustrating that after busting my ass for as long as I have, the past 6 years have literally been stagnant years watching everyone else kind of move on... I feel left behind, I don't know if there's any other way to put it.

[lordameth]

Well, I'm not sure there's anything I can say that you haven't heard before, or wouldn't be expecting to hear, but I mean it sincerely. I think it's a common thing to feel that way. I often feel the same way. I have friends our age who are finishing phds, friends who already finished and are full-fledged professors; friends who live high-powered lives with high-salary jobs, flying all over the world all the time for business; friends who are buying houses