hi.

i think im starting to feel fine, finally.
meanwhile, i had the strangest, most disturbing, horrible dream of my life last night. it would probably take me an hour to type it here but i won't deny you this detail:
im watching this man who is both on tv and also right in front of me ( Read more... )

LAST PERSON WHO ( Read more... )

i know i keep saying this, but. . . . .

COME TO CLASH TONIGHT!!!

you shall do as i command! or else. . . .

i don't know what i want to do. it seems that sitting around, being lazy, is becoming more and more appealing. i've gotten to the point that i don't even care if i eat because i know it involves work. so i eat ice cream sandwiches, which is still an effort but worth it because they are so tasty. i'm glad i don't have a scale anymore. i think ( Read more... )

i'll be back at liquid room tonight. i have to remind myself to keep it together.

meanwhile, the stomach aches persist.

in the last four days i went from 10 to 8 to 4 to 1 cigarette a day. i don't feel any better.

who likes long sleeves in the summer time?

i guess its all about finding a balance.
my stomach hurts. and then it doesn't. 7up is the only thing that helps.
side effects.
i must cut back on cigarettes. i switched to lights. the doc said my upper lungs were quiet.
am i fading away or slowly returning to a "normal" life?

what's going on?

i'm back.

not sure yet if that is a good thing.

something. has. to. change. is it me?

finally.

the weekend from hell is over.

my scavenger hunt for replacing my belongings is still going. i've gotton a lot done but i still have plenty to do. that was a very insightful statement.

im tired.
oh yeah...its tuesday, so come tø club north tonight for clash.

attendance is not an option.