(no subject)
taken from Gina <3
instructions:
write ten [very personal] statements.
intended to different people.
never tell which one is to who
1. this whole thing is very childish. you hurt me deeply. what you said hurt and it still does. you know how to use things against me. and you betrayed me. i'm willing to get over that. in fact i am. but you have now idea how much i care/love you. and as much as i am hurt by you, i only want you back by my side. it tears me to pieces that we dont talk normally.
2. i like who i am when im around you. i am comfortable and i am who i am. we understand eachother. you know what i'm thinking before i even say it. i only wish i could see you more often. you mean the world to me. you've been by my side since 7th grade <3
3. you know this is you <3 i am so grateful that you are back in my life. you are my favorite person in the entire world. you understand me better than any other person. you are just like me. this summer has seriously been the best one ever and i'm glad we shared that together. i look forward to what we have ahead of us because these are the days.thank you for always being there for me and supporting me in all that i do. you are family.and i love you so much.
4. i think what we have now is quite an accomplishment from before. although we have reverted back to how we were a few years ago, its quite nice. thanks for the good times.
5. what can i say. your a sweet amazing person your always caring for me and making me smile and laugh. you may not realize it but you mean so much to me and i thank you for all that you've done for me. xoxo.
6. you're a really cool person and i have the best time talking and hanging out with you. you've disappeared twice. the first time i knew why. and this time i dont. we talked and everything seems normal. but i just dont get it. even though we've only known eachother in a short time you are one of my really good friends. thanks for always making me smile and you are one of the funniest people i know.
7. thank you for being there through the rough times i had in 11th and 12th grade. you were such a sweetheart for letting me cry on your shoulder and huging me until i was calm. you are like my big brother. i care alot about you.
8. you are the first guy i ever really cared about. we had a special bond that even now i dont understand. even though we were both on different tracks. our love was strong. i hope your doing well and i hope you get it together one day.
9. things ended on a really bad note. i wish we could be friends. you're really cool. though we talk now i find it still isn't the same. i was childish and immature back then. and it'd be cool if you gave me a chance. if you realize this is you. i hope you realize when i try and talk to you. im trying to make an effort to be your friend and talk to you. i will forever remember when you came into my life because i think i was just about at rock bottom and there you were. and thank you. haha. i'm ending it like that and. we really should hang out sometime.
10. i really liked you. and then. i hated you for so long. we hated eachother. of course what you did sucked. it wasnt right what happened. i really appreciated you owning up to your actions this year though it had been years past gone. you are my sunshine. you are different than anyone i know. your a great person and you deserve to be happy. i've had some really great memories with you over the past year and only wish from the bottom of my heart that things could have been fixed earlier. i wish i would have made a bigger effort to see you this summer. there are no excuses that could explain why i didnt. but honestly you are one person i dont want left behind because you amazing. i wish more people know you have the heart that you do. good morning slap happy. i'll see you soon <3
oh lovely ones.
after holding it down for a good four hours i just about lost it. the pressure was hard. the stress is enormous. i just dont know how im going to adjust. and i bawled my eyes out.i'd hate to do that at work. but thanks mike for comforting me. your the best.
saying goobye to mark was hard.
i must have said a thousand goodbyes.
and then i saw someone tonight that
i never thought would catch my eye.
it'd be cool if he calls.