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today was definately one of those off days. didnt sleep much, went to see rachel early this morning. came back. banged my head up and was knocked out for 2 hours. then i was just.. "there". talked to scott for a bit. decided to call steve. i dont know where that would have gotten me. but it was worth a try. saw the play Hairspray tonight. made me laugh a bit. and then i came home. no, steve didnt call me back. i can close the book on anyone else..but i cant on him. this kills me. so many people let me down. so many people are never there. and i'm left with that empty feeling because i am alone. and then i read something that completely brought me to tears.
because i have been so focused on who's not there and who's never there that i forget that i have my constant. and you were in my 10 im sure you realize. and i haven't even taken the time to thank you.
thank you for being there for me senior year. for eating lunch with me. for beach trips. for always being there for me. for being my crying shoulder. for always attacking me with hugs. for being my locker partner as well as english.for wanting to take me to church. for visiting me at work. for letting me come over to say hi or after a rough day and just chill at your house. for letting me wear your space helmet. and rock out to your music. for movie nights. for always making me feel special. you mean the world to me.
thank you from the bottom of my heart for being my constant.