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Noise and Light
I want to go home.
There are things at play that I have no control over, things undoing me a little bit. I need to work; I want to sleep.
Yesterday, I was alone but for the dogs who do not bear the burden of solitude well. I played loud and hard because I needed to wreck something, work out a little pressure. It feels good to make noise.
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Overcoming the Mind Killer
With wrenching clarity, I realized last night why I don't write. I make up excuses without realizing I'm making up excuses, feeling too tired or unmotivated or this or that, it's always something. Why? I am afraid. No, I am kind of terrified.
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Anticipation
Had an amazing weekend. Two full days and then nothing but relaxation yesterday. Saturday was gorgeous and I can't wait for the heat to really set in. After the mildness of last summer, I'm expecting this one to be fierce. In my race to be sunscreened, I forgot about my legs and now they're red-patchy and a little burned, and what a difference two ( Read more... ) -
Turning and turning
I was obsessing over something I can't remember, something I should remember. Now it is not so much an obsession as it is a little pricking in the back of my mind that pops up when I am not thinking of something else.
I feel indignant about everything that is happening lately, the progress of the world so to speak. It's a little ridiculous, because ( Read more... ) -
Thinking
All I want to do right now is lie in the sun and read until my eyelids get too heavy to hold open. Alas, I am working hard instead to be busy and awake, trying to harness a mind that wants only to wander. O, the tiny struggles of the day.
I should be glad they are nothing more. I am glad they are nothing more.
So many things to think on, so many ( Read more... ) -
Where is my monster
I want to fight against something, rage against a tangible entity. It's that feeling you get when you've been idle too long, a sense of impending motion and electric energy building to launch you from the static. It's the feeling of being almost unstoppable, assuming you get the requisite push and no objects impede your trajectory. It's hard to ( Read more... ) -
We will walk and keep on glowing
I like this very much: http://www.copyblogger.com/do-not-stop/#more-13528
Also, it's interesting to think about how things would be different if significant events in our lives and in history had gone differently: http://media.npr.org/assets/img/2011/03/16/ ( Read more... ) -
We can't keep pretending it's Winter
Got our newsletter out on time, with two whole hours to spare. That was Tuesday. Three hours of overtime and some wine. I think it was a success.
Feeling good about things. The job's not perfect, far from it, but it's a job and it's experience and it's money in my pocket. Not that I care about that last thing much anyway, but it's nice not having to ( Read more... ) -
All the universe or nothing
"The most important thing in life is to stop saying ‘I wish’ and start saying ‘I will.’ Consider nothing impossible, then treat possiblities as probabilities." - David Copperfield (Charles Dickens)
I am restless.
It kills me that on a day as remarkable as this I am doomed to sit inside a dark office attempting tasks I can’t begin to like. I try. ( Read more... ) -
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Pomegranates are best eaten at room temperature.
I've been quite absent it seems. Busy, well. Well, aside from this cold that's lately taken to haunting my head.
It is nice to sit together like old maps, folded and bent and curious, undiscovered places wrapped inside. So many worlds unwritten, ancient things made new by eyes that have never seen.
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