i don't know how it works in the financial world, but i assume that with every investment that you make, you expect it to be rewarding at some point in the future. and i believe that this theory works with every aspect of your life ( Read more... )

he said i'm fucking craving u
i mustered a halfsmile. is that just sex you're thinking of?
i wish you wouldn't be so vulgar.
it makes me feel vulnerable.

the funny thing about over exposure is that it can mean you're seeing too little and too much at the same time

I had built barriers around to protect meself. I believed that if I had him in my heart I didn’t need anything else. I closed myself off from everyone else. I’ve turned superhuman I get what I want, or so I thought, it was my construction. I’ve forgotten the word the one that matters the one that connects the one that creates. Today everything ( Read more... )

I felt the icy winds

Chilling my skin

Alone as I left the club

Looked left looked right

I walked somewhere

Each step in front of the other

I couldn’t hear the world

I couldn’t hear my voice

I only heard his eyes

His voice and his crotch scent

I heard a moment of connection

In the sound

That my heart made

Thud thud thud thud thud thud

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and finally, with much difficulty, i have concluded that i do have many issues and i need to see a psychologist.

there is no greater motivational force than the propulsion that springs from the love of another

but with it comes the realization that there is so much to be done

and the desperation of being caught in a vivid impatience

so, 4 months or so ago, i started going to the gym again and had set myself a goal of 70kgs after a drastic drop from 70 to 63kgs after a long period of inactivity.

as of a couple days ago, i weighed 70kgs on an empty stomach.

next up, 78kgs of pure lean muscle.

possible? don't care. just eat and gym!!! rarhhh!!!

i've been thinking a lot lately. don't snigger.

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its like a prism where white light splits into a rainbow:
only this rainbow have converged into utter darkness, a baffling nothing, a mathematical impossibility
why does it disappear? where does it go?

i wish there was someone here to discover this fantastic phenomenon with me
to help me find the missing rainbow
and it pull it back up among my