Why am I so fragile?

[doalittledance]

This is ridiculous. For all that I've been through, one would think that I have an invisible shield made of titanium alloy to protect against pain. But pain is such a strong force that it permeates through the chain-meal and spreads like an infectious disease.

I put up an intentional wall to guard my fragile emotions, but it must be made of shallow

Comments

[cornchamp]

You gotta try to get through that barrier, believe me. I killed my emotions a long time ago and I still haven't cried since. I can't cry. It is an act that has completely gone beyond my grasp. No one can last in a wasteland.....

[msdestynie]

Sometimes it's easier to give advice than to take your own, don't you think? It's sad when people kill their emotions. How are you supposed to enjoy anything worth living for? Putting up walls is all well and good - but when it comes to the point where you aren't feeling your own emotions ... You're shutting out 1/2 of the reason for living.

As far as putting up walls in hopes of not getting hurt...Don't we all do that? Especially after we've been hurt in similar situations before? However, even if we think we put up walls..we can't actually know if they worked until the situation or person says or does something hurtful. ie. Your wall, if it was even there, didn't stand up well enough to prevent you from feeling hurt. And that's because you unintentionally were putting yourself too far out there.. You opened up too quickly... *hug* I loves ya, Laura. I shall call you later.