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[dodgermask]

I hate that feeling, where you feel like you have more to talk about to strangers then you do anyone else. I'm lonely right now, I guess tonight could epitomize that. Mom's outa town, I have a headache, I'm just sitting on the computer talking to another new faceless name, with music on and infomercialas in the background. I started slacking in

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[despondence]

i think there's a difference between letting it show and being an asshole, it might be small, but it is different. and if you don't come to minnestoa, alright, but i'll miss your visit terribly. We also still have polar bar legistics to discuss.

[dodgermask]

Yeah, I'm really unhappy about the whole situation, I'd made lots of plans and rearanged everything and I really need the money right now.

[despondence]

if there's anything i can do to ease your unhappiness, let me know.

[centipede_punk]

milwaukee gets to you, i know how you feel, i hate it here, i want to leave, i just have nowhere to go, i feel like i'll be stuck here my entire life and that scares me. the alone thing, i'm with you on that, i have never felt more alone in my life than i do right now, i even get the feeling that my friends don't really care if they see me. i fell like i'm loosing all connections and getting left behind in this shit hole. i'm sorry, i didn't mean to unload on you like that, i didn't mean to sound so selfish, its just that i've been feeling like this for a while. i'm really sorry you feel this way, you know that you can always talk to me, i know i'm not the best listener, but i'm here if you need me. oh, and danny, i would never think of you as an asshole

[dodgermask]

Thanks paul I appreciate it, and dude you can always just throw down with me, I'm a good listener, I'm glad that your coming to the meetings because I really havn't been making an effort to see much of anyone. But yeah if you need to process or anything feel free to come to me

[centipede_punk]

thank you too

[andifonly1more]

Loneliness has hit me hard over the last 2+ years out here. Now that I live alone, I never see people. I'm always the one chasing people down and trying to get plans started. Frankly, it's exhausting. And when things don't work out time after time, even if (or perhaps especially because) it's with a variety of people and not just a single subject, it gets hard not to take it personally.

I've tried going out here, but if I go out with my friends, it's usually about drinking. And since I'm still not 21 and have no interest in getting a fake, I can't even go to them with some of the more laid back bars, only over-the-top house parties. I try to put on a happy face and go out and be the fun guy, but it's just exhausting.

I feel ya. Hopefully things will get better, for both of us.

[maggiehl]

"I'm always the one chasing people down and trying to get plans started. Frankly, it's exhausting."

That's how I feel a lot of the time. And now with my ridiculous schedule (school, swimming, working, etc..) I never rarely have time to see people anymore, and it's tough. I just need being with people I care about, and I don't get it so much anymore. It's especially difficult with you Danny because we are both so busy, but if you're ever free on monday or thursday evenings- I would be more than happy to see you and talk?

And I agree with Despondence.. there's a difference between letting yourself show and being an asshole. Hmm. Maybe I'll talk to you about what I think the next time I see you? I'm megatired and don't really want to try to post something super meaningful because it's not going to happen...

[aquaintance]

So, where do I into all of this. I demand the troof!

And if you do end up coming the weekend of 21 Oct, you need to know that Public Allies takes part in Make a Difference Day and that is on 22 Oct. You might get roped into participating.

[dodgermask]

participation is for suckers, depending on how things go I might go the weekend before halloween.