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[dodgyamerican]

#6- Sick of thinking "what if"

Work blew as is the norm. The first part of it just went by in a haze as I mourned my lost sleep and daydreamed about being home at this very computer. My boss and coworkers got on my nerves while I was at the window and everyone just let the phone ring. I'm like WTF, am I the only one who can hear that? I had a line

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[lashers]

i think about my daddys death sometimes too. It is such a terrible thought i know, but maybe we do it to somehow subconsciously prepare ourselves for that terrible day??

so its normal?

[dodgyamerican]

I dunno I just kinda thought I was just strange for even thinking it. It happens a lot especially when I dont see him for a while that I think it. I wonder if its just like the way guilt manifests itself to me. Cos like he once said to me how when he feels hes done here he is gonna go live in Mexico for the final years of his life. He actually said before he wants to die there cos its where he was born. I sorta get the why but I still dont want him to go live over there. I'm selfish but I want him to be here with me as long as possible. So when did you start having thoughts about your dad going? Is he ok or just like me a "one day" kinda thing?