Comments | doktor_jess: Some decisions are too hard to make on your own

doktor_jess

Some decisions are too hard to make on your own

Mar 21, 2009 14:48

First of all I'd like to thank everyone that has supported me with regard to school. Whether you gave me sage advice, or just comment hugs, I really appreciate it ( Read more... )

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petite_tadpole March 21 2009, 21:45:11 UTC

*love*

jimtbari March 21 2009, 22:12:19 UTC

*hugs*

grooviegirl March 21 2009, 22:56:52 UTC

I adore you, and admire your honesty and courage.

And knowing when something is in need of repair and getting it isn't weakness, its simple upkeep. You ~would~ do it for your car, and you are so much more vital than your vehicle. Meds don't always have to be a "lifetime" thing, either. Sometimes they are a temp solution to help you out of a spiral.

I am proud of you and your willingness to return to your center and your true north.

doktor_jess March 21 2009, 23:02:34 UTC

Thanks.

Taking depression meds really scares me. Even though many of the people that I love take them and are fine, most of me sees my friends from college who fell into a sea of meds and were lost to me because the meds changed them. I know you can be on meds and be fine, but they still scare me.

Speaking of centers, I need to find mine again. I need to find some big place where I can see the stars. Somewhere away from the sound of civilization so I can center and ground and be.

grooviegirl March 21 2009, 23:10:02 UTC

The blue ridge mountains have some of the most beautiful hiking and nature. You could totally save just a bit, take what walter and I call a motel campin trip where you sleep at the motel, but spend the rest of the day out in nature. You could hike, play in the streams, get totally lost and find your way back to civilization. Nature is good for the soul, and I even have a good book to suggest.. http://www.amazon.com/Walk-Woods-Rediscovering-America-Appalachian/dp/0307279464/ref=pd_bbs_7?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1237676971&sr=8-7

phoenixm March 22 2009, 06:20:40 UTC

Or Jess and Lea could simply come to my apartment for a weekend of complete and total debauchery.

doktor_jess March 22 2009, 06:28:18 UTC

Somehow I don't think that would help me center and ground. That's sort of something that needs to be done alone.

lohquesse March 22 2009, 03:00:14 UTC

You are doing what is best for you. If, when you started this adventure, school was the best thing for you, and now it is not, it happens. That is why life is an adventure that changes minute to minute. There are times when I wish I could change this or change something that I did in the past that would have made me better today (or so *I* certainly assume:) but if you focus too hard on the decisions of the past, you'll never be able to live with yourself today.

Here's hoping that meds will help, and don't be discouraged if the first, second or even third round does not help - there are lots out there and something will help if that is what you need.

And you said it best - your friends WILL root for you, that is what friends are for :) We like you, no matter what - changing your mind about school or meds are not going to make us go away!

doktor_jess March 22 2009, 15:39:09 UTC

I'm hoping that maybe I'll get lucky with the meds. I know celexa works well for my mom, and as I've got half of my genetic makeup from her, it's liable to work for me. I really don't want to go through the ordeal of side effects and zombification that come along with the wrong drug.

Thanks for reminding me that my friends are awesome. Even though I know it, sometimes it's hard to remember when I don't see you.