Control?
Oh my lord. Insane week. Oh PS, it's only tuesday. I don't know what to do with myself, my life, my time. It's all soaked up and crazed at the moment. I don't feel that control like I usually do. Everything is crazy. I am usually in control, if not ahead of things. Not recently. I've been so tired from staying up doing homework, and swimming, and getting up (ususally runing late) and doing it all again. Oh, and also starting tutoring tomorrow. Oh, and also doing the program from Beauty and the Beast, and doing GOld stuff, and delivering GS cookies, and all of that great stuff.Oh, plus trying to eat really healthy, and do some weighlifting/running! No time. I keep trying to get ahead, or no, break even and do what I should, but I can't. Senioritis doesn't help. I thought it was supposed to be easy now? No, with midterms coming up, def not. Hey, teachers, please, lets pile on some more fucking work, fuckers! I hope I can get it together. I can't continue on like this!
Oh, another things seriously bothering me, Courtney. Sucks. She is leaving on Thursday, and tomorrow's dinner with her will be the last time I see her for like 6 months. Not fair. She is a soph, and that has to be so traumatic to leave at that time. If I were her, I don't know what I would be feeling. Yeah, exciting to go to a foreign country etc, but def not cool to lose your friends and have to go to a foreign school, with porn shops everywhere. (I know guys would like that part). Courtney,I looove you!
Oh,shit. I just realized. I carpool with the Palmiottos in the morning, and I will not have my car at school, thus no cookies toorrow. I know I will be taking crap for tht one. Maybe I can work it out with the P's. Ugh. So much for being lazy.
Now for some intense REM SLeep! I had to read a chapter on sleeping and hypnosis today. Miserable...I wanted it so bad!
Oh, also today did a timed 3000 in practice. yeah, what happened to a fun practice for Courtney? Bob, I love him, but things like that really make me mad. I had a really good swim. 35:57...which means I was holding 1:11's high, which is beast, if I say so myself.
I/'m determined to keep my sanity. I am trying.
Thankya.