FIC FABRIQUE
Title: My Bestman (2/2)
Pairing: Cesc Fabregas/Gerard Pique
Rating : PG
Warnings:.Fluff.
Disclaimer: Beatiful Lies
Summary: The wedding party was coming.
Author's notes: Always about sweetness <3
Feedback: Yes,please J
“Hello darling”
“Hello mom”
Geri sighed in relief. He finally could talk to his mother. He regretted for hanging up his mom’s calling last week. That was rude he knew but sometimes he needed to be alone far from parents’ affection.
“ How you doing? I haven’t hear your voice in almost week”
“I’m fine mom. How are you?”
“Happy like flowers in the spring”
Geri smiled though his mom couldn’t see it.
“Would you come here on Sunday?”
“Oh well my son’s inviting me. I’m flattered”
“Come on mom”
“Haha. Sure honey, I’ll come to you. But what kind of occasion is this?”
“It’s Cesc’s wedding” Geri caught his breath. He felt his chest agony.
“Oh my God! You two are getting married? Why don’t you say this earlier? I can help with the cake or the venue. Why is this so sudden?”
His mother’s voice sounded so clear cheerful. He remember the day he told his mother about him being gay and fell for his best friend, Cesc. Her first reaction was just shocked but then she gave him warm embrace same as like she used to gave him. Nothing changed. She loved him always. He was still her son. And she was happy for Cesc. She loved Cesc. She knew him for ages. Cesc was Geri’s best friend. She knew that Cesc was the best for his son. Geri was so happy at that time cause everything seemed to be easy. He wasn’t rejected. And he promised he would fight for Cesc. And now he was sitting on his bed talking to his mom and heard that happy voice again came out from his mom. But it wasn’t the same like that old day. Geri wished that he would never ask his mother this way.
“It’s not. He will marry Carla on Sunday”.
“What? But… oh..”
Silence.
“I need you mom. I can’t stand this alone”
“Are you alright honey?”
Geri gasped. He tried to take a deep breath. He tried to hold his tears. But his mother’s voice was so softly and warmer. He couldn’t help not to cry.
“What do you expect mom?”
“I have to attend the wedding of someone I love where I have to be his bestman”
“I have to stand there behind him and watch him say the vow for anyone else”
‘I have to be there to make a speech when I’m completely broken”
‘I have to let go of my best friend whom I’m in love with”
“What do you expect me to feel right now?”
Geri sobbed. He couldn’t stop the tears which running down his face. The tears he tried to hold back these days lately. He burst out of his anger, sadness, failure. All mixed up.
“I’m so not alright mom. I’m totally fucked up. I’m fucking piece of shit”
He cried out loud now. He didn’t even care anything. He felt no embarrassment. He just cried. His back leaned against the headboard. He curled up his kness in front of his chest. He sobbed. Hs body was shaking. He put his head down onto his kness. He still could hear the voice in other line.
“I’ll stand by you in every step you take Geri”
~
The door widely opened. The sparkly sunlight through the building slightly. There she was. Carla entered the building wore her pure white wedding dress. She was so beautiful. Her gorgeous smile all around her face. Her father stood beside her. They walked towards slowly with the two kids spread flowers behind them. Music echoed. All eyes captured their moves. And there they were. Cesc held her hands. They stood face to face. They were so happy. They said their vow. And yes he said those two fucking word..
‘I do”
Geri gasped. His eyes burned. And he hardly tried not to cry. He turned his face away and rubbed his eyes. He stood there behind Cesc and felt the world has crushing down. This was the time when he definitely lost his love. Maybe the only love he ever felt. He stumbled upon his feet.
Shit! I ain’t gonna down. I can through this. I can! ~ Geri thoughts.
Geri turned his eyes to his mother who sat in the second row. She stared at his son deeply. She wanted to hug him tightly and shushed him then told him that everything’s gonna be fine. She wanted to kiss his tears away cause she never saw him so broken and wrecked.
~
They were all there. Talked. Laughed. Happy faces. They chattered and twittered all the way. Commented and complimented the food. They talked how beautiful and gorgeous the newlywed are. They laughed at every jokes which was gave by the host. They drank and ate noisily. All them were happy.
Ting..ting..
Geri stood up making noise with his wine glass. Everybody turned to him.
“Thank you. Reminding I am the bestman here. It’s time for me to give you the ultimate speech”
All guest laughed.
“Hmm. Where do I start? Hmm.. as you know, this Cesc Fabregas, my Cescito, my amazing best friend is officially taken now. So ladies, we’re so sorry for you”
Cesc grinned. All the ladies chuckled.
“And yeah he’s a very kind, nice, cool, charm, great, adorable, oh you can use all the good words in dictionary to describe him”
“One day he told me- Geri, I don’t know if I can fall in love or not cause I only know you in my life, I guess I just love you-“
Cesc looked at Geri in disbelief but then laughed. He didn’t expect Geri would make a joke like this. “It’s joke”, he whispered in Carla’s ear. And she just smiled beautifully then kissed him.
“And suddenly, last week he came to me and said - Geri, I’m getting married with Carla and I want you to be my bestman-“
“Well I’m happy but also broken, he told me he loved me first but then marry with anyone else. A bit rude I guess” Geri made a sad face. All the guest giggled.
Geri looked straight to the new couple. Watched them entangled hands and smiled happily.
“But yeah, he deserves the best for his life and Carla is the best for him. And believe me Carla, he’s the best guy on earth. You would never regret by marrying him”
Cesc and Carla mouthed ‘thank you’ to Geri.
“Cesc, I love you” Geri made the sound steady but shaky. But he doubted the guests notice it. Or maybe he didn’t care if all the people in this room heard his last words. He just wanted to say it. He wanted Cesc to notice it. He wanted Cesc to understand what this words meant to him. But Cesc just sat there and smiled. The irresistible smile he always gave to him.
“Salute to the newlywed!” Geri handled his glass up to the air. The guests followed it. And gave the applause for Geri. Geri shrank down back to his seat and gulped one big sip from his wine. He needed to get drunk.
~
From : Cesc
6/9/2010 15.43
My plane is 17.00 I hope you can come before I leave xx
From : Cesc
6/9/2010 16.00
You coming or what?
From : Cesc
6/9/2010 16.05
Are you ok?where the hell are you? I’m calling now!
Geri’s phone buzzed for the third time. It was on the sidetable. Geri didn’t bother to pick it up cause he knew who was calling. He just laid there on his bed for almost a day, did nothing. He looked like a mess. His hair messed up. He didn’t even get a shower today. His mom has left this morning. She actually wanted to stay longer but Geri didn’t allow her. He just wanted to be alone now. It took 3 hours to convince her that he was fine and would be ok if she left him. And now he was there lying on his bed helplessly. For him, the world was over, stopped spinning. He just wanted to be there forever.
The phone buzzed again. Geri groaned and turned his body to reach his phone.
“What?” Geri muttered.
“What is up with you,dickhead?! I’m still in front of my flat waiting for you and now I’m late for my flight! Dios!” Cesc rambled.
“Why you wait me?”
“Jeez! Are you drunk? You promised me to come. So move your arse up and get over here!”
“I think I can’t go. You enjoy your flight and your honeymoon, ok?”
“You can’t do that!”
“Why?”
“Cause I want you to be here like right now”
Tut tut tut. Cesc hang up.
Geri sighed deeply. He rubbed his face then walked towards the bathroom.
He arrived in Cesc’s flat 10 minutes later. He saw Cesc stood in front yard with one big suitcase beside him.
‘Where is Carla?”
“She’s off to airport 5 minutes ago. Why do you take so long?come on let’s go” Cesc picked his suitcase and ready walked towards Geri’s car.
“But why?”
Cesc looked back. “Why what?”
“Why don’t you go with Carla than wait me instead?”
“Cause I want you to take to the airport”
“Why me? Sorry I won’t to be rude but you can grab a cab”
“Cause I want you. You! Is it not enough for reason?”
“I don’t understand” Geri shaked his head.
“Which part? I just want you to take me cause well you know I’ll go for almost two weeks. We won’t see each other and yeah I know you will miss me. So is it wrong if I want to spend time talking to you before I leave? I could barely talk to you last night cause you were so drunk. So let’s go off to airport. I’m late!!”
Geri just couldn’t think properly right now. Cesc sounded and looked so bossy. And yeah strange. Weird.
And Geri immediately grabbed Cesc’s arm.
“I’m gay”
The words suddenly burst out from his mouth before he could think what it was.
“And I’m falling in love with you”
Cesc’s mouth fell open. He narrowed his eyes. He just didn’t believe what he just heard. This was a mistake. Something was wrong with his hearing. Or …
“I’m sorry. I want to tell you long time ago but I didn’t. I don’t know why, maybe I’m just too afraid. Afraid of what you might think about me. Afraid of losing our friendship. Afraid of losing you. But yeah, I’m in love with you, Cesc”
Cesc still in quiet. He didn’t know what he should say cause his brain barely could work right now. He was still trying to process everything that Geri just said.
“And I’m trying so hard to get over you cause you’re a husband now. I do try,Cesc.”
“But now, you just make it hard for me cause you keep dragging me to your life, your marriage life. It’s just really hard you know. I’m trying to keep this feeling inside me but you here with all your act you wanting me..I can’t stand it. I’m sorry”
~
It has been two weeks. There were no call from Cesc. No news. The last word he said before he leave was nothing. He just went without saying anything. He was off to airport by cab. He didn’t even say goodbye. He just left.
Geri knew all the risk when he said those words. He would lose anything. He regretted it. He wished he just could shut his mouth up. He wished he could hold back his feeling. He wished he could stop ramble stupidly about his feeling. He wished he never said those words. It was enough for him for losing his love. But now, desperately he was losing his best friend too. The precious friendship he only had.
What he expected from Cesc when he said it. Best friend who suddenly became gay and in love with him. Of course it scared him. Fuck.
His phone buzzed. He grabbed it quickly. Cesc’s name showed up o display.
“Cesc?”
“Oh hi”
This was the most beautiful voice he’s ever heard for this pas two weeks. Geri sighed in relief.
“You call”
“Yeah. Why didn’t you call me in the first place?”
“I.. I still don’t know I’m allowed to call you again”
“What are thinking?!” Cesc chuckled.
God! ~ Geri thoughts.
“I’m coming home today”
“Glad to hear that. You enjoyed the trip?” Geri tried to make a happy sound and yeah he was happy literally cause he could hear that man’s voice again.
“It was good and fun”
“Great”
Silence. This was so awkward. They were in silence almost 5 minutes. No one wanted to hang up or broke the silence.
It was Cesc the one who broke it.
“You should tell me earlier”
“Tell you what?”
“Everything”
“I’m sorry”
“I felt like the worst friend”
“No. you’re not”
“Yes. Cause I barely knew who my friend is”
“You hate me?”
“I wouldn’t call you if I hated you, dumb”
“So?”
“I guess everything will be the same”
“You sure?”
“Yeah”
“And about my feeling?”
“Hmm. I’ll get used to it. Oh God! You really love me in that way, don’t you? I’m so flattered”
“Shut up!”
They laughed like they used to. And now everything seemed to be better. Geri didn’t have to lie about his feeling anymore. He came out now. And Cesc accepted it. They were still friend. Best friend forever.
“I’ll come to your flat tonight. Xbox time”
“You lose!”
“You wish”