so ive been depressed lately. it sucks. i think im fine but im really not. i do wat i usually do and put on a show for everyone wen they are around and wen they leave i wish i were dead ( Read more... )

so eating a fudgecicle with one hand is hard!! ok im done..so ( Read more... )

so i like this guy from work. idk wat to do. idk if he likes me and i think its doubtful but everyone else tells me to go for it. if u were to see him u would think y the hell do u like him. he's not attractive if u were to have just met him but he has the best personality! i love being with him cuz he makes me laugh no matter wat. i always smile ( Read more... )

im ready to start all over again. i feel like i want a new identity. i want to change my name have plastic surgery and move somewhere far away. i dont think ill miss anyone and i dont think neone will miss me. everyone will forget and i will never have existed. i want to live in a city and not have a care in the world about wat everyone thinks or ( Read more... )

so im really really really bored. friday i got way too fucked up and slept through my alarm clock saturday morning and woke up at 11 and i was supposed to b there at 8 and to make things worse my boss was the therapist this weekend. so i went in for half the day and felt like shit. then i went home and started throwing my guts up all night. i ( Read more... )

ok so...im over my wreck. im still sore a bit but im ok. last night was alot of fun ( Read more... )

ok so wednesday i got off work early to go to a red birds game with steven and all day i had a wierd feeling like i shouldnt go but he was so excited i couldnt bare to tell him no. so i come home and slowly get ready. well i didnt want to do my make up at the moment so i asked him if he cared to drive the first half while i put on my make up. he ( Read more... )

so i partied hard this weekend. it was wierd. idk. alot happened but i dont remember it and it seems like nothing happed even tho it did. man alcohol will get ya! blahblahblah. i know i have more to say but im hung over, im goin on 6 hours of sleep in the past 2 days cuz i worked at the hospital this weekend which means that i go in at 8 and i ( Read more... )

well...im doing better. im still broke as fuck but im better emotionally i believe. uhh...man not alot has happened. just work and get fucked up. i might b moving to memphis with steven. he's pretty much got the job. so i guess we need an apt. hmm...that sux. i hate moving. o well. ill get outa here. but idk if i wana go. there will b more to do. i ( Read more... )

well im doin better. some girl that i work with pissed me off yesterday tho! she started making up some bullshit about rider. i couldv hit her in her fucking face. but ne way.

im so ready to get outa this place. i need to move off somewhere.

well gta go back to work : ( party tonight let me no if u wana go.