A new year
Thank goodness things have finally calmed down. It's so nice to be able to relax a little bit! This whole weekend was pretty kick back. I was at my parents' a lot, playing with the puppy and figuring out Dad's vcr-dvd converter. You pop in a video and a blank writable dvd and the thing converts it! It's so great! We've converted just about all of our old family videos of our family from when Greg and I were young, so the tapes are 21 to 19 years old. Very cool stuff. We have some really funny videos.
I've been trying to spend time with Matt, too, since he's leaving. There's been times when I haven't wanted to, necessarily, but since he's leaving, I figure I should. He called me twice on Sunday. The first time was to say hello. The second time was to say that every time he's in the area all he wants to do is see me..."Is that bad?" he asks. All I could think, was, "Probably, since you're leaving," but I didn't say it. *sigh*
I went out to dinner with a bunch of people on Monday night. Matt took me. It was the two of us, his brother Chris and his girlfriend, Beth, Brian, Sean, and Nate. It was nice to meet Chris and his girlfriend. It was interesting to see Sean and Nate again. One of the first things Nate asked was, "So, how's Mindy been?" Very interesting. Sean was talking about coming over to visit on Thursday...we'll see if he calls. That'll be interesting for sure.
Yesterday, Tuesday, Matt and I went ice skating. I always forget just how cold it is in there. It was nice though. We skated for about two hours. We both managed to stay on our feet the whole time...yay! We had a good time. At one point I was getting a little chilly and wanted a break, so we went and got hot chocolate. "You seem like you're kind of holding back sometimes when we're together," Matt says. "Yeah...you're leaving," I reply. "I've gotten hurt enough in my life. I don't need to do it to myself on purpose." Best to be blunt in a situation like this, I figure. It sucks, but what am I supposed to do? He keeps saying, "There's so much I want to say, but I probably shouldn't." I just don't say anything. *sigh* Why were we stupid enough to put ourselves in a situation like this? Why is everyone pushing for us to go out when he's freaking leaving? Stupid. Rar. Greg apparently told him he hasn't seen me this happy in a long time and that Matt has his blessing. Whatever. I'm not happy because of Matt. I'm just happy. If anything Matt is dragging me down a bit because I'm so pissed about how stupid this whole thing is. If he was going to be back in a few months, maybe...but a year? Jeeze.
Poor Greg, too. Jen broke up with him on Sunday. He called me around 10:30, I think, and asked, "Do you know where Brian is?" "No, why?" I asked. He just started crying and couldn't stop! Izzy and I drove over to Brian's, where Greg was parked out front. He cried for a few mintues and then we sat around and talked for a while. He's doing all right considering the situation, I'd say. It's never an easy thing to deal with. I feel so bad for him. I hope they end up getting back together once Jen figures things out.