Shake the blues out of your hand...

[domestic_blend]

I was taking out the trash today, because this weekend has made me feel so dirty...so tainted...so i thought i would clean my space. make it pretty. make something near me satisfying...so i began the ritual...washing here and there...picking this up...leaving that there...and i got to the garbage. by the time i was done throwing away various

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It's all meant to be

[ataxien]

Stephanie,

I think you met that woman for a reason. Maybe she needed to meet someone as warm and kind as you, maybe she reflected a part of you that feels shattered and homeless. In any case, I think you did the right thing. The reality is that you still have to protect yourself and your energy, even when you are lending a helpful hand.

Keep cleaning; you are doing far more good for yourself through this shedding process than you realize right now.

With love,
Liz

Re: It's all meant to be

[domestic_blend]

My sweet liz...thank you. god thank you. goddess thank you. ganesha thank you. bless you, darling. I feel lost here. I thought that I had these close friends, but since we came back they havent really asked if I am ok. I am not...im trying to be better...god im holding on with every ounce of soul that I have left. It just hurts more...day by day I feel like I cant breath. Im more of a mess than I ever remember being. And my friends...they say they will call...they dont...they say they will stop by...they dont. I come RIGHT OUT and tell them i dont want to be alone and I need them to stop by...that i need to talk. and they bring a boy and fall asleep on my couch. then they say they will come back...they dont. they call me when they need help moving, and I want to help. But they didnt call to see if I was ok. Then they email me with a letter an ex boyfriend wrote to them...and I want to be there in their healing process..but they arent aiding in mine. I am so angry, and so hurt. the little cancer trusted someone...came