random ramble
2:14 am wednesday night - technically thursday morning.
literature exam at 3pm today, so i thought to myself, livejournal always gives you insightful and inspiring language which can be applied to a literary review?
biggest random ramble dodge yo
i dont have anything insightful to update on, except after tomorrow i will be half way through the torture they refer to as VCE EXAMS. yet somehow it seems to be a bit of an anti-climax. i dont want to jinx myself, no the exams arent easy. but the "aura" of pressure surrounding the exams seems to fall away when they actually arrive. maybe its just me - but in perspective, the exams arent worth a whole lot. this is not an excuse to fuck them up. on the contrary, its worth doing well just to prove to yourself you can. at the same time, there is (in my opinion) way too much build up of tension surrounding their onset. maybe that helps us relax when they come, and theyre not as bad as we thought... who knows.
finishing exams also means - not going to school. that will definately be something different. finishing 13 years of study, realising we technically have nothign else to do but wait for december 17. results day. but then what? we get our results and try to figure out exactly what it is we want to do with ourselves.
ive been thinking about going overseas for a long time, and i still havent decided. i probably wont be sure until i get my ENTER and the excitement of finishing wears out - and only then can i suss out what i want to start doing. i wonder what my friends will do? it'll be hard not being at the same place with them every day. the same freezing classroom at recess.
this is supposed to (and by all means is) a significant period of change. what am i going to have to complain about after schools out? whilst im sure ill find something, i just think its a good time to reflect on these things. afterwards ill be able to go back on this rambling, and wonder if things turned out how i invisaged.
december is fast approaching. that means not only enter scores, but something more personal. my two year "anniversary" since finishing treatment... its crazy to think back at where i was two years ago. anyone who looks back at 2 years ago probably says the same thing. im in a better position than i was back then, at least that's for sure. and whilst that was a big turning point, so too are the next few months. there are so many things i want to do when i finish school - which dont involve study. that's probably a big thing im glad about, putting the procrastination to the side and actually doing some of these things which i claim to want to do. there's simple stuff, like paint and then there's travel and charity etc. who knows what ill actually do out of those things, or what will last - but at least i can try it.
this seems to be the biggest random ramble ever. and its a big change to the cock and balls entries of usual (well not really). but im writing this because im bored, because writing is good practice for literature exams, and because these are the things going through my head at the moment.
on a lighter note, the puppies chewed up my good bra today.
im happy and excited to see what my friends and i are going to do and how this next few months pans out.
x
literature exam at 3pm today, so i thought to myself, livejournal always gives you insightful and inspiring language which can be applied to a literary review?
biggest random ramble dodge yo
i dont have anything insightful to update on, except after tomorrow i will be half way through the torture they refer to as VCE EXAMS. yet somehow it seems to be a bit of an anti-climax. i dont want to jinx myself, no the exams arent easy. but the "aura" of pressure surrounding the exams seems to fall away when they actually arrive. maybe its just me - but in perspective, the exams arent worth a whole lot. this is not an excuse to fuck them up. on the contrary, its worth doing well just to prove to yourself you can. at the same time, there is (in my opinion) way too much build up of tension surrounding their onset. maybe that helps us relax when they come, and theyre not as bad as we thought... who knows.
finishing exams also means - not going to school. that will definately be something different. finishing 13 years of study, realising we technically have nothign else to do but wait for december 17. results day. but then what? we get our results and try to figure out exactly what it is we want to do with ourselves.
ive been thinking about going overseas for a long time, and i still havent decided. i probably wont be sure until i get my ENTER and the excitement of finishing wears out - and only then can i suss out what i want to start doing. i wonder what my friends will do? it'll be hard not being at the same place with them every day. the same freezing classroom at recess.
this is supposed to (and by all means is) a significant period of change. what am i going to have to complain about after schools out? whilst im sure ill find something, i just think its a good time to reflect on these things. afterwards ill be able to go back on this rambling, and wonder if things turned out how i invisaged.
december is fast approaching. that means not only enter scores, but something more personal. my two year "anniversary" since finishing treatment... its crazy to think back at where i was two years ago. anyone who looks back at 2 years ago probably says the same thing. im in a better position than i was back then, at least that's for sure. and whilst that was a big turning point, so too are the next few months. there are so many things i want to do when i finish school - which dont involve study. that's probably a big thing im glad about, putting the procrastination to the side and actually doing some of these things which i claim to want to do. there's simple stuff, like paint and then there's travel and charity etc. who knows what ill actually do out of those things, or what will last - but at least i can try it.
this seems to be the biggest random ramble ever. and its a big change to the cock and balls entries of usual (well not really). but im writing this because im bored, because writing is good practice for literature exams, and because these are the things going through my head at the moment.
on a lighter note, the puppies chewed up my good bra today.
im happy and excited to see what my friends and i are going to do and how this next few months pans out.
x