How is it that you always find a way to make me forget all the unimportant nonsense i'm worried about?

 Oh how quickly things can change

Work just blows ass.
I am being totally disrespected, underapreciated and walked-on.

Dina wants to walk out!!!

I got soooooo shitty last night.
Must make a real post when i have brain cells again.

Most important thing I learned from last night:
Kevin told my dad he loved me.

*melt*

I can't lose him. Just can't.

Been pretty blah the last few days.. PMS? I hope. Not really, but at least I'd have an excuse...

This Kevin thing is getting harder by the day.
We almost called it quits...

Just dunno what to do.
If I don't get this job @ fig. i'm going to look for a job in TX. Fuck it.

Gotta do what makes ya happy sometimes....

Had someone last night tell me I don't ( Read more... )

I cannot possibly be this impossible can I?

i remember why i said i wouldn't do this...
im doing it again

i remember thinkin i couldn't handle this...
im doing it again

i remember feeling like time was working against me...
im doing it again

all i know is
this is different
and i would do it all again

i just got offered the promotion and a raise
my supervisor thinks im too lazy o do it
fuck her

i could give a shit less about money but it would help

the only thing on my mind these days = kevin

Breathe in for luck ( Read more... )

This weekend has been quite the whirlwind!

I'm still trying to wrap my mind over everything that's happened.

Friday's events seem to be behind me.
Saturdays events were interesting...

After being up most of the night
from nerves and confusion,
I woke up
and had to do something.

I actually went running.
I never exercise.
Kevin called while I was running.
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Sitting @ kriegers w my guy friends. Wish i was w kevin. 2 weeks is too long. I would rather see him this weekend. I totally need his arms around me right now...

This is way tougher than i thought it would be. 9 months is gonna be total hell.