Four days ago it was a month that I have been away, and things have been happening with a slow and quiet determination - which leaves me with a depth of experience I haven’t felt in a long time.  There is a deliberation in my surroundings that allows my experience here to wash on in waves, leaving me time to reflect and absorb meaning.  Taking ( Read more... )

When you are told from childhood that you are expected and commanded to behave in a way that will be acceptable only if you do it voluntarily, you remain permanently mixed up. That, if anything, is permanent brain damage.

- Alan Watts

I am sitting twenty-one floors above street level - looking down onto the busy downtown street and out to the mountains in the horizon.  I haven't been outside today at all - but yesterday I spent the day at the beach which is a 15 minute walk from here.  I am working on quite a nice tan, so far.

Being outside more has awakened my appetite - the ( Read more... )

Alive - and well.  Not much happening.  Have a bit of a tan.  Looking for work.

When I come to life, I will add detail.  Miss you all.

"Finally, someone who uses more than one paper."

-Clann Zu to Bob Forbes

.lain.

How can the Disappointment always and forever spread so that I don’t feel it anymore and sometimes forget that this is what it all ends up being like and it becomes difficult to believe what I believe because it is all lies and I only wish I knew where they came from because I hold on so tight and don’t hold on at all and at the same time ( Read more... )

.leechesonastonewall.

Reinvention Girl shot out of bed that morning, with a feeling of ownership.  ‘I have it by its throat,’ she thought.  She got dressed - not in the clothes lying in a heap on the floor - but in something fresh from the closet.  She made her way to the romantic little mirror set-up in her room and looked at herself.   She ( Read more... )

It has been a long while.  A lot has happened.  It's funny that we all want change and ask for exciting things to start happening, and then out of the blue some ordinary week everything is set in motion.  Things start happening.  There are options.  And immediately we are startled and start backing away, into corners.  It's too fast.  It's too much ( Read more... )

Note to self : You like it. 

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