audiogenic seizures/musicogenic epilepsy.

[donna_u_wanna]

had a seizure last night.

every time I hear the stimulus I get so freaked out that I have a panic attack because I'm so fucking terrified of having another seizure.  it's so goddamn debilitating.

I am so fucked.

I need to get out of here.

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[jaded_laughter]

i'm sorry! feel better. :(

i had a seizure once. they put chemicals in my blood and made maps of my brain. but no one could figure out what had caused it and we all moved on with our dull lives.

[donna_u_wanna]

why does this information make me more intrigued by you? why do I suddenly want to start flirting awkwardly? thank god I don't have a hot coffee to pour... this could end in burns and a botched order. again.

anyway.

to be serious for a moment--the symptoms never recurred, it never happened again? never ever? not even mildly? did the doctors warn you that it could be chronic (as in...were you diagnosed with epilepsy?), or did they dismiss it as a fluke, something that happened during this one instance, never to happen again? also, did it cause any damage?

sorry...just curious, you know. 'cause I'm scared.

[jaded_laughter]

they said, "our tests were inconclusive; we don't know what you have, if anything. come back if it happens again." it didn't. it's been eight or nine years now, and i'm hoping that means i don't have a weird brain disorder.

anyways, if i were you, i might want to talk to a doctor or a neurologist about what happened... but keep in mind that doctors don't know as much about seizures as you might think, and there's a chance (maybe even a good one) that no one will be able to explain what happened in your brain, and they'll just send you on your way.

[donna_u_wanna]

I guess it's not mentioned on this blog, but I'm heading out to Death Valley on Christmas morn...so all of my appointments are scheduled for afterwards. I hope that this wasn't precipitated by the fact that I was given anti-seizure medication as an early treatment for my depression. but you're right, I should just go see a doctor and figure this thing out.

thank you for your help, though. and for humoring me by answering my questions.

Shit!

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Are you ok?

Merry Christmas!

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I just got your package today. Who knows where it's been lurking all month? I didn't ask any questions when it arrived. The guy seemed pretty confused by the apartment/house numbers on this street. But anyway, I got it! The cookies are still delicious! I'm gonna open the presents tomorrow even though I already know what they are. They're sitting under the Christmas tree right now.
I hope everything is well out west.
Watch some Christmas horror for me!
Miss you!

Re: Merry Christmas!

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Oh yeah. The scarf is awesome too! I love the color.