Steph: Giving up roleplay is not just giving up roleplay. It's the beginning of the end. I'm struggling to find what is lost in me, before this disease engulfs my entire mind.

Stephanie: Donna and I are temporarily 'dead' for various reasons. First off, and I very, very busy, and second, the internet is more damaging than helpful lately. It's no ones fault but mine, and I wont go up to the people who have hurt my feelings because it wont solve anything. I'm just a moron who can't handle rejection and neglection well at ( Read more... )

Why is it when I need someone to speak to and care that no one seems to freaking be around?

You've pulled me down in the dumps with you.

The few thoughts I tried so hard to prevent ended up being thought anyway. Today, out of anger, I did things I regret, to others, to objects....to most of all to myself. I wanted the emotional pain to end so badly I had thoughts of hurting people....which in some way, were carried out, but most of all, I had the dreaded thoughts of killing myself ( Read more... )

Suddenly, I find myself searching for someone to relate to. I dont know where to look.

I'm going to go look for him now.

Darkness. A time of healing, rejuvenation, retreat, and dreaming of the future. The transition between the old and the new. Yes, I am in this transition, if you have been wondering why I've been so quiet. I've been....sleeping, and no, I don't mean literally. I am recharging. "Keepin' it on da down low!", if you like it better that way ( Read more... )

It's time for a move, for a change.
It's either I take him, or leave him, take it, or leave it.

And the times of Highschool comes to a close ( Read more... )