Although your proverbial ducks are all lining up, they appear to be doing it in the distance. This means that you may still have to wait for success, but at least you now realize that it's on the way. As much as you want the rewards you believe you have earned, don't lose sight of the non-material perks, too.

So remember that whole speech about how i wasnted to change and become less predictable. Well that aint going to happen becase i just realized I have someone telling me where i need to be and when i need to be there almost ever single fucking day. What kind of life is that. Definitly not one i want to live for the rest of my life. I miss the ( Read more... )

So recently I watched american beauty. What I would like to say first about it is that the writer of that movie is one of the most fucke up geniuses of our time. To take a simple concept of living life and make it so complex...well it was simply amazing. If you watch it with the right attitude then it could make you look at your life in a completly ( Read more... )

The past two weeks have been insane. I am certainly drained of any back up life support my body was saving up. In fact that was completly gone about two nights ago. I work thirty hours a week. I got to school for fifteen cedit hours a week. So in actuality I am working a full time job with five hours of over time. But I don't get paid to go to ( Read more... )

Man I am so tired but for some reason I am compelled to write in this thing. So I guess I can just write about today. Today wasn't a bad day at all to say the least. Lets see, I didn't go to school and I didn't really need to but it is always a good thing that I didn't go to school because that means that I didn't have to listen to the Kaplan drama ( Read more... )

So for youwho actually read what i write, you probably know that most of my posts are all emo and gay and shit like that. Normally I come on here and just...well let out my feelings i guess. If someone upset me i would write it down here. If i was angry I would write down why. But to be honest...I dont really have a lot of problems now-a-days. My ( Read more... )

So i tried to get home early to make sure i caught my fights for the next couple months....and my boy Urijah Faber was fighting mike brown for the title. Urijah Faber is a great fighter, fast and explosive. Tonight it worked against him. He got taken down, bounced right back up got away from the guy came flying toward him with an elbow and mike ( Read more... )

This weekend was a very good weekend for the most part. It had its slight down times but it was all good. I take it back this week hasn't been bad really. I started my new schedual for school and I really like it. I started back up at kfc. The people there are ok nothing special and I am not going to let them in my life like i did the last time. ( Read more... )

For the past week or so I have had this feeling in the pit of my stomach. I am unsure of what exactly it could be. Let me rephrase that, I believe I know what it is but at the same time I have my doubts. Have you ever had a feeling that "on stage" things were fine but "behind the scenes" something completly different was going on? I surmise it is ( Read more... )

Some one once told me that a journal is a personal thing. So I have had thoughts going through my head as of late and its kinda hard to make something of them so I am going to just write some things down in this little entry and people can get back to me if they want to no matter what it is they feel by this ( Read more... )