Don't know why I'm posting, it's not like I really have much to tell.

[lolgirl2325]

Well, here I am posting, it's 10:02pm over here in good old sunshiney California. Anyways, well I guess I should share it. I've got 8 months no cutting tomorrow. Yeah, that long. I don't know why I'm sharing it, to me it's not really that big of an accomplishment considering some people have gone 3 times as long as I have without it. But I guess

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[massacregoddess]

I can completely relate to like...95% of this. *hugs* The hardcore cutting. Why you would cut. And COMPLETELY with the quote, it's eerie...but I'm more of a major depression sufferer. But still...it makes sense. I wasn't HAPPY...but I was OKAY. And that felt so alien to me...and now I'm sad, verging on depressed at times...numb...disconnected. It's so typical. I'm only 2 weeks cut-free...but that's a pretty big deal since I was chronically relapsing in the "hardcore cutting" variety, on top of bruising, burning, hair-pulling and other types of SI. I'm glad your post was long. You said very specific things I can relate to...makes me feel less alone and estranged from everything.

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[lolgirl2325]

Well, it's nice to know that someone out there can relate to me. Most days I feel so alone and alien because basically all the girls I went to middle school with never had heard of anything like self harm...I was the only one who did it. Talk about awkward. And I had no friends. But that's not the point, anyways, well 2 weeks cut free is much better than nothing. You should be proud of yourself. Soon, if you work hard and learn to cope differently(easier said than done I know) you'll be able to have 8 months too. I hope that things will look up for you, and thanks for the hug. -Sarah

PS: If you're ever having a rough time or need to vent or anything you can send me a message. I'm all ears.