i'm the same way. but it often helps me in unusual circumstances. strange but alot of people are actually attracted to those who'll just speak off the cuff. throw things out there and roll the dice.
After my boyfriend read my lj entry about him he broke up with me on my birthday. Later in the day on my birthday he took me out to eat which was the most awkward experience ever. I guess we are back together. He barely would hold my hand be barely would look at me. He completely ruined my birthday.
was it awkward because he was aware of how much he had been hurting you, but didn't know how to apologize for it? thats the only logical reason i can think of for him acting sketchy like that, if he was taking you out on his own free-will, ya know?
like, he was trying to make an effort to make it better, but he still couldn't feel comfortable knowing how upset you were with him before.
i really wish you the best. you shouldn't have to put up with ruined birthdays, and things like that. you really deserve to be happy.
It was awkward because when I showed up at his house he didnt say 'hi' or anything, he just sat there and shook his head. I don't think he was even planning on taking me anywhere untill he heard his mom saying something about how men always mess up days that are suppose to be special.. right after that he was like "want to go eat sushi?". The whole car ride there he didn't really speak to me or hold my hand. He didn't really speak to me while we were there or the car ride back. While we were eating after the asian women walked off my boyfriend says "their purpose is to serve and to fuck. It would be so sexy if she came up to me and said sucky sucky 5 dollar and I would be like SOLD!". I told him I was going to pretend he didnt say that and he was like "pretend all you want, I said it". Then I sat there for a few mins and finally said "i can't believe you said that" and he just laughed. I finally got a kiss and him to tell me 'happy birthday' at the end of the night.
it's just way easier to pick things apart then to like them. i know for me i see the faults in things way before i see the perks so i'ts only natural that that would be what you'd mention
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man, you get so much god damn love on this thing, so either people really do like you, OR they are so scared of you that they think if they don't say anything nice you will add them to your list of people to kill......i guess we'll never know.............PS BLUNT OBSCENETIES ARE SWEET...unless they are mean and/or directed towards me...love life, drink milk.
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strange but alot of people are actually attracted to those who'll just speak off the cuff. throw things out there and roll the dice.
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thats the only logical reason i can think of for him acting sketchy like that, if he was taking you out on his own free-will, ya know?
like, he was trying to make an effort to make it better, but he still couldn't feel comfortable knowing how upset you were with him before.
i really wish you the best.
you shouldn't have to put up with ruined birthdays, and things like that.
you really deserve to be happy.
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we love you as you are, obviously.
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