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one.
oh my...there's quite the PYT at work. no joke, Michael Jackson fans- sometimes it can make a girl straight nervous!
two.
each morning she wakes with a dream to describe, something lovely that bloomed in her beautiful mind. I say, "I'll trade you one for two nightmares of mine."
three.
I've been thinking about Ida a whole lot this past week. she was the first friend I ever really loved and I did so to the point of exhaustion. I invested so much of myself in her that it sometimes hurt. but I never minded. even with her flaws, I saw her as perfect and wanted to be a part of that. four years ago, she had a crush on me. it killed me to learn that my love had a limit.
she was safely evacuated out of New Orleans and goes to Fordham now. if I don't see her in New York, I'll see her when she comes home. I can't wait. I want her to be a part of my life forever.
four.
I may hang out with Ryan and Louie tonight. if this does happen, let me be the first to say that it will be the most awkward event to ever take place. three socially inept individuals out to dinner? let the good times roll...
five.
this is going to sound ridiculously cheesy, but I've realized that the power of healing comes from within. I know that's some hokey-ass, self-help type of shit to say, but I guess it all comes down to the fact that I don't need to travel out West to move on or grow. renewal begins now.