Tonight really has opened my eyes.

I thought I had found an escape, but i just lied to myself.
I had a million things on my mind tonight, but you lay still.
the silence broke my heart

I really thought I had found an escape.
but i'll never be happy.

this time i dont feel like talking about it..

( pictures taken with digital. )

( San Fransisco pictures I took with my phone. )

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I'm really bored with all of this.yesterday was my sister's 21st birthday ( Read more... )

so i guess i'm falling apart as we speak..
I'm goin back to the doc this morning.
I think I've got hives? I dunno they're everywhere,
and they're really red and itchy. i look like a tomatoe!

I'm alive and well.
and i can somewhat eat again!
in case any of you cared.

while i was out, my computer got shit-faced and my pops had to wipe EVERYTHING out.
... all of my music..
all of my pictures..
all of my everything.yesterday i got a call back from the chick at the airline place & she wanted to make an appointment with me cause she said i ( Read more... )

2nd shittiest weekend of my life.
the doctors thought i had mono again.
turns out i just have strep throat. Im in pain.
The doc told me not to go to school tomorrow, but my mom says suck it up, I'm goin.

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is it weird, that when i'm sad, i dont want to talk about it.
i just want a shoulder there to cry on and a pair of arms to comfort me. i dont need words to make me feel better.
it feels like words are my enemy at times.
is that weird?it bugs me when i dont want to talk about something, or i dont know what to say about something and i keep getting ( Read more... )