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friday
-had to sit through a boring class and wait to leave for courtney's
+coney with andrea and later courtney
+3 hour car rides with great friends
+stories of the bellgrande beatdown
+rocking out the entire way
+seeing rob and terry again
-michelle being late to rob's house
+michelle only being about two minutes late to rob's house
+hugs and kisses
-drunk kids at parties
+videogames and cheesy 80s movies on michelle's bed until 2 in the morning
-passing out from exhaustion
-having to sleep in her brother's room
saturday
+mrs szjako making breakfast
+getting the pictures from last weekend back
-not having a place to stay on saturday night
-getting ripped off because of labor day at the rockstar days inn (that the hopeful stayed at...remember guys?)
+burger king
-lame horny ghetto dudes with bleached hair at burger king who would have caught major shit if i didn't have this fucking cast on my leg.
-michelle having to work from 5-9
+napping in the hotel for a few hours
-waiting in the parking lot
+meeting michelle's coworkers
+going to rob's show
-stupid drama-causing kids
+seeing bill and chris and sarah and courtney's brothers and everybody else again
+meeting rob's cousin
+rob's band playing a killer set
-having your camera break when you're doing video for shenoah
-some really large drunk fuck trying to kill terry
+terry kicking him in the balls and andrea spitting him in his face, followed by craig going after the dude
-michelle getting wrecked in the elbow by said guy
+some drunk chick pissing herself and the ensuing laughter
+getting back to the rockstardaysinn
-having to shower with a bag over my cast
+michelle and kevin party
sunday
-finally getting to sleep around 7:30 AM and waking up at 9:30
-having to check out because mishelly and i were broke
+taco bell for breakfast
+finding out her parents like me
-feeling bad for sleeping all day
+nagle's bbq
+courtney and pat's incredible horseshoe techniques (i need a fucking helmet next time)
+chicken and hot dogs and good conversations with good people
-michelle thinking that i hated her for some reason
-having to beg terry for a place for michelle and i to stay
+him letting us crash on his futon in the basement
+watching movies and eating those oatmeal cream pie things
-terry trying to make out with me
+andrea kicking terry's ass repeatedly
+not hearing ANY of god-knows-what was going on in terry's room while michelle and i slept
-michelle still thinking i hated her
monday
-yet again, michelle waking up thinking that i hated her
-not being able to go to breakfast with mr. and mrs fitch and anita
+mrs. fitch making me cinnamon rolls
-michelle having to leave for work for an 8 hour shift
+fun rides in terry's car
+seeing him and andrea happier than i've ever seen them in my life
+going to doug and the esper family picnic
-the weather being hot as fuck all day
+ooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOO
+hanging out with bfffbfff's family and friends and rob and andrea
+andrea making me understand EVERYTHING on the porch (more about that later)
+good food
-michelle and terry having to be at work
+seeing pictures from rob's show on saturday
+meeting terry and michelle up at terry's work with bffff and andrea and rob
+/-everybody leaving to pick up clothes for terry
+beautiful conversations in parking lots in parma, ohio
+not feeling alone anymore
+realizing you've finally met someone like you
+fun fucking trips to denny's at 11:00
-having my neck molested by multiple people
+"i'm a shark"
-leaving for rob's house with michelle knowing that a goodbye was coming soon
+/-three hour goodbyes
-rob and terry streaking down the street for no reason whatsoever
-terry pantsing rob and me not being able to avert my eyes quick enough
+sitting in the car with michelle for an hour while we said goodbye
+crying again for the first time with someone i trust
-teary goodbyes
-feeling your hand slip out of mine as we drove away...
-running out of cigarettes and gatorade
+having to pass rob's again...and having rob and terry and michelle still there.
-more teary goodbyes
+fun drives and making incredible time driving home at 3 in the morning
today
-getting back to the apartment at 6:30
-sleeping through class
-missing the fuck out of you...
and like i said, i'd mention something of what andrea and i talked about on the porch at doug's house....i've got nothing but love for that girl for helping me to see that being treated like shit, being manipulated, and kevin van duyne don't have to go hand in hand anymore. its strange how she understood the situation even though she and i had barely discussed it before. its a good feeling to know people have your back and have your best interest in mind no matter how much that "best interest" hurts at the time. i've never felt this confident before. i don't need a bunch of bullshit that falls under the heading of a lie to make me feel complete ever again. i have andrea parnell and the rest of my friends to thank for this particular realization.
i'm glad things happened the way they did. i think i finally feel like that thing that's been missing in my life for so long is finally here. i've never had friends like this before. ever. i don't worry about a goddamn thing when i'm with these kids. and its incredible.
olsen show tonight at small's. and i still have a cast on.