we destroyed all traces of what once was and waited anxiously for the piercing cries to tear our ears to shreds. some would call it destruction, we call it beauty. early twenties and disenfranchised, we knew that the notes that were assaulting our eardrums could be our only shot. fuck the big picture. this was our world. and the night that he ( Read more... )

maybe tonight was the night that i outgrew it all ( Read more... )

we watched the end of our lives from the greatest distance. this is our killer, standing down at the hands of men who haven't begun to realize the incredulous nature of our existance ( Read more... )

i thought that this was over. observe the pattern repeat and contract at a distrubingly close interval. watch as they repeatedly place the gun to your temple and then pull it away. you've never known anything else. well, maybe once, at one point in time where honesty meant something. you've grown to know this feeling all too well. and i watch as ( Read more... )

it's almost one AM...

and i'm wide awake and running on three hours of sleep. but i'm asking myself how i ever got so fucking lucky.

that's not to say that i'm not scared out of my mind and apprehensive beyond belief...but i suppose that comes with the territory. we'll see what comes of this. all i know is that tomorrow might not be so bad after

just so you know, i'm on to you.

if you think i'm this fucking stupid, think again. destruction won't be so easy this time.

i'm growing tired of the words "out to get me" being so present in my life. goddamn.

attn: janele benson

you need to hang out with me.

so many things i wish i could say right now.

its a precarious balance, but its immensely beautiful. and that fear that threatens to make my heart stop only makes me want to work harder.

what an amazing night.

here's some hope for tomorrow.

i hope this shit works out.

i know my day is coming soon....

so in the last few weeks i have ( Read more... )