sometimes things, people, times are so similar it hurts.

at least i know i'm smarter than all of the bullshit.

chelsea babbish is my fucking hero.

i can't sleep for reasons i won't go into....

....lets hear it for old friends putting life into perspective. i suppose i could turn all of this around.

i know i want to...the question is, can i?

olsen bbq was good ( Read more... )

played a killer show last night. felt good to get out again.

went to the movies with tim and emily stepinaditch. she bought my ticket. emily has moved up on my favorite-people-list dramatically.

i <3 huckabees is an incredible film.

the barbeque is going down tonight. i hope.

and i swear to you, i'll never be another distraction again.

olsen show tonight.

it's the first one in forever and the last one for awhile.

so you'd better be there or we're not friends. well, maybe we are... if you're lucky.

6:30 @ Schoolcraft College Vistatech center
FREE, all ages.

show up and fucking bring it.

oh yeah, ps, i'm done with you.

i ate lunch with my grandma today ( Read more... )

oh yeah.

and my phone is now dead because i sat on it. we'll see how long the phone insurance takes. so, i may not call you back. YOU NEED TO LEAVE A MESSAGE FOR ME TO CALL YOU BACK because the missed calls screen (and every other one) looks like a big piece of gray shit ( Read more... )

fuck this.

thanks for the calls back. thanks for this one-sided bullshit. thanks for the broken hopes of repairing the life i once led.

it's time to start over, right? yeah. here goes nothing.

and i laugh uncontrollably at how pathetic

and alone

i am at this moment.

fuck it. fuck everything. fuck friendship, fuck love, fuck trust. time to turn my life into an -ism because that's all i deserve. disappearance? maybe. fuck. fuck..........

the lonliness becomes too much at certain points.
i am alone. forever. what a sick

maybe that entry last night was a little too harsh ( Read more... )