I'm gonna be ridiculously tired at work tomorrow... why did i think this could work?

At least i look hot.

My horroscope today said:
The mistake you make proves that you haven't learned you lesson

Maybe? But it's my mistake to make.

I'm not sure how i expected it to be different.. I don't know what i was thinking would happen. It was pretty much the same as the rest of the times we go out, but there was a sort of safe feeling just knowing that he was comfortable enough to set the perameters like that ( Read more... )

i'm feeling totally invigorated right now ( Read more... )

So now that i'm not dead tired (who am i kidding? i really am...) I can write briefly about what a good night last night was.I only stated thinking about things once.. got sad for about a minute and a half then pushed it all away. Which, i think, is progress!

But i have wax all over my monitor, sigh.

They're sending my uncle home tomorrow... barring any unforseen problems, of course. I suppose it's a good thing, but i would prefer if they would keep him in there for a while still. His work paid for him to get a suite across the street from the hospital for the first little while so they don't have to drive 2 hours if something happens. I'm ( Read more... )

I think about moving away sometimes.

more recently than before.

Think about moving to a new town. A small one. Far enough but not too far. There's been one thing holding me back, but i need to let it go.

Mom was talking about it a couple of months ago, but i dismissed the thoughts.

I'm thinking again.

A little too seriously, I'm afraid.

I get a call while i'm at work this evening ( Read more... )

Yah, so now that i'm actually up and getting ready...i want to go back to bed even more.

I've never really felt less attractive in my life. I wanted to try and look good today and that kinda went right out the window.
Hey, remember that 3 months when i had some self esteem? i liked that.

Maybe i'll find some different clothes to wear.

I don't want to get out of bed today ( Read more... )