Sometimes all the choices suck. Follow your heart or do your duty. Either way lies pain. [There's a Guriel-shaped hole in his chest that's left him with an unpleasant, hollowed-out feeling.
He also knows that Guri wouldn't want him wallowing like this. Or talking to a demon about it.
[No, he would not. But the Lion's not here, is he? And Simon's using that to his advantage, oh yes he is.] Preaching to the former choir, Benji. And fair warning? Sometimes you count on the Almighty having a little understanding of your feelings and find out too damned late that He wants obedience more than compassion. Approach with caution, man. S'all I'm saying.
[Simon sighs and gestures for another round -- and this time he does buy one for Ben. It's aaaall about the little gestures.] Wish I could tell ya. I actually really do. Best I can say is, you got at least two demons who aren't looking to kick your ass, that's better than nothing.
Stupid prophecy. Never asked for that. Be so glad to find this stupid gate and kick the crap out of it so it's over. You people are ridic-- silly if you think I'm coming over to your side. Just so you know.
And then there's fucking Lucifer, what the fuck is that I don't even.
[Simon snrks.] Don't get me wrong, Lockwood. I like werewolves, I even like you, but not near enough to start trash-talking my boss behind his back. I've got more self-preservation than that.
I just want to know what the fuck he's even thinking. Or if he's just saying that to get a rise out of me. Your boss is an ash-- asshole. But you probably knew that already.
Noooooo, I've known for a long time. Did you know he threatened to rip my tongue out and feed it to me? Not cool. Guess I annoyed him or some such shit. [He rubs the scar over his heart reflexively.] Bad habit.
I should shut up and roll over like the puppy I am, lest the fuckin' Prince of Darkness whap me with a newspaper and eat my liver. Gotcha. [Bitter Ben is oh, so bitter.]
Fuck me, why can't my life go back to what passes for normal?
[One of Simon's eyebrows goes up.] What'd you give to make it go back? [He holds up a hand quickly.] And before you leap down my throat, I know your soul's off the table. I'm not gunning for that.
Do I have to be gunning for something? Can't it be even remotely possible that I might not like the guys who want you on our side, that I might be inherently sympathetic to a guy getting ganged up on and want to do what I can to cut him a break?
This is not Discworld and million-to-one shots do not succeed here. Of course you're gunning for something. Guys like you always have an angle. [He snorts into his woefully-empty (again) glass.] I'm not that drunk, Simon. So, what is it. Your angle.
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He also knows that Guri wouldn't want him wallowing like this. Or talking to a demon about it.
He wishes he knew how to stop.]
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And then there's fucking Lucifer, what the fuck is that I don't even.
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Fuck me, why can't my life go back to what passes for normal?
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...what are you gunning for?
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