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[doogster]

I think this maybe my last journal. No, I'm not commiting suicide although I am considering it very much now. I wish I were dead. I pray at night before I go to bed that I may get lucky and die the next day. It's gone on too long. I don't want this anymore for me or you guys. I see that all I ever do is just be sad and complain and crap. I feel

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[j_strawberry09]

What is the matter with you? Youre 14. Good looking kid and you have no terminal health problems. You have parents and friends and other family who i know love you whether you deny it or not. U live in the U.S.A. and you have a bunch of freedom (also freedom to kill yourself but dont do that), a roof over your head, and all the food u could possibly want even though you choose not to eat it. And most importantly you have God and you are HIS CHILD and if he wanted you to die and be passed away then it wouldve already happened. And this other person that can relate to you is doing the exact same thing over a stupid girl that may play a big part now but if you go on and live your life according to Gods will, which is not for you to die right now, then they will seem totally a part of your lame past. Now think about it, even though your "emotions" are big and could take over this world, the best solution is by no means death and I mean that, God is!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its so cliche but sooo freaking true. So doug. what are you

[kutter09]

DOUG PITT! if you died my life would be over. All of your friends care about you, and if something happened too you, i know that everyones life would be screwed up really bad. Doug i know that you are one of my cloestest freinds, and i wouldn't want anything to happen to you. Doug i know that your mom and dad care for you soo much. your mom called me and wanted to know what was going on with you. Doug she started crying. Doug she loves you soo much that she asked me what was wrong about you, all i wanted to do was cry with your mom. All she kepted on telling me is that she loves you soo much and she wanted to know if there was something she could do for you. Doug you may think that your parents don't care about you at times, and i think that it happens with everyone i know with my parents, but doug, you mean soo muhc to your parents. i just remember when i was on the phone with your mom. Her and i were both crying for you! we love you soo much doug, and i know that you maybe having a hard time, and i just pray that everything works

exactly.

[j_strawberry09]

Ashlyn, im so glad you told doug that bcuz it is so true how much his mother and father love him and Ive had other close friends tell me that his mother was concerned. (It brings genuine tears to my eyes and ive never even met his mother.) of course she is, her son, a part of her life is going through hard times and she wants to help him so very badly. i hope with this said doug will realize that his parents are there for him and love him so very much and when they act out of anger, as he says they do, or something to the extent that they are only doing it bcuz they love him and dont know what to do. i know ive said too much but i hope doug realizes ppl love him sooo much. I love him even though i dont know him very well, i mean i know i know him but i havent been there that long i just hope he knows how much hes loved and that by this stuff he will seek God and close ones and grow bcuz of it. Much love~Jenna

Thomas

[anonymous]

I LOVE YOU MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DON'T FORGET IT!

[sarasthecoolest]

Well Doug, sometimes I wonder about you, hoping that you can overcome this. When I see you at lunch,carriders, or whatever it makes me sad. Please don't say that you wish you die because I or anyone else doesn't want that to happen...what about in the beginning of the year when I was battling against teenage crap...guess who was there? YOU. And I know you love this girl, but at some point you have got to let go, just because she is dating someone else doesn't mean she hates you. I Love you and wish the best for you.
sara

[kayla_wizzle09]

doug...you said i quote "I mean all I ever do is bring you guys down."...never, you dont know how freaking hard i laughed when you wore crutches..or everytime you would trip on things...i am not saying that your pain makes me laugh..but your expressions afterwards..haha i am seriously laughing out loud..literally..even without all the tripping..you still make me laugh....many times you dont even realize it...i know we arent as good as friends as i wish, but seriously i love you like a bee loves honey...you make me feel loved...especially with the carnation...that was so sweet...ok for me to have so many good memories, and not even be that close of a friend..imagine what your closer friends have of you..crazy thought ey? hey if you ever want a good time...call me...haha just trying to make you laugh...even though i suck at that...oh wellz..love ya and see you in spanish...where the lady that gets very cranky teaches..