this weekend has been pretty educational.

so last night and tonight... the inevitable happened
it's been coming for a while.
and i realized it was the same all over again
last summer, just the best friend instead.
but i'm not as naive anymore.

yes turned to no.

my life is now complete.
really. i could die now in perfect bliss.

i hugged john from the maine.
he's amazing.
and patrick.

saw the maine. metro station. good charlotte. boys like girls.
tonight was orgasmic.

john= <33 forever and ever.
martin= smexy. haha.

fast.
dammit.

can't stop won't stop, I must be dreaming.

it's summer and i'm sixteen ( Read more... )

i just got home.

chaos.

i'd forgotten how much i loved dancing.
and how happy it made me.

coming back is really hard.
facing everything i left behind.
and trying to get to where i was before.

but its worth it.

last night i went clubbinggg :]
ten to three
mucho fun
my friend who lives here has a friend who has a friend who works the door
so no id necessary 
club cherry haha

i finished 1984
second time i read it
i love orwell
the mythology is actually interesting
suck it
and i know i shouldnt be doing hw or thinking about college
but there was no one to talk to in ( Read more... )

i am brown.

i love ( Read more... )

as much as i hate tyler.
and want to punch him in the face for everything that happened.
he just made me feel a lot better about myself.
ironic.

"that? the people at your school are seriously retarded. told you i should have gone"

lovehate them all.