a mixed up maniac - uncertifiable
hmmm.
On Tuesday i met Louise - she bought her trainn ticket to Birmingham (single, not return :( ) and we went to Archies for food and rink (s) then to the basement forma few cocktails. Then back to Ellon and grabbed bottle of vodka and went to Sophies - we'were really pretty drunk. Walked Louise home, in the rain, then bantered with Soph and went home and stuff (oh god what was it thinking) and slept.
Had a couple of blank spots from through out the day.
Woke up on Wednesday afternoon/morning ish and didnt feel to great - but ate fuck all which didnt help. Mum put my eugh-ness down to her having a cold. hah. felt better after a shower and a sleep and some tea. erm got a taxi to Joss's, ate tea (his family call meatballs Fagots, i found this real amusing), wnet to his room, had to explain my actions to him - i hate that, smoked the very last of my pot, went home, went to sleep after watching big brother and the second episode of Lost (i like it).
Planned to go into town today but woke up pretty late - not long up, really want a fag, but not sure what time mums coming back at, she gone on one of her 'stop smoking NOW' kicks again so best to avoid smoking at home as much as poss.
Yesterday i had an apiphiny (sp?) - i think i actually am going nuts. So many signs point to it - i have little OCD traits i never noticed before the last few weeks, everytrhing in my head seems so messed up. i dunno. Joss thinks that becasue i know im going nuts doesnt mean i am - because generally mental people dont know theres anything wrong - if that makes sense.
We've decided the scale of crazziness is (lowest level): 1.Weird 2.Freaky 3.Nuts 4. Eccentric 5. crazy 6. Insane. Apparently im Eccentric.
He thought i was joking - im deadly serious - what if theres something seriously fucked in my head. not good.
I could have smoked about 7 fags by now, dammit.
I think Joss has the day off tommorow - i think we are going into town - and getting food etc - like coupley stuff - or not, knowing us we'll go into town, get stoned go eat at a fast food place, then probably get drunk. ha.
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