The architects daughter risks her newborn knees to play with her dad's foot under the glow of his computer. The architect doesnt eat, so there are no snacks. He does not play music. He does not look away from his screen. And yet, climbing over his foot, grabbing the hem of his jeans and climbing up to lick his knee, butting her head against the ( Read more... )

It looks fine. But the fetus heart doctor wants to make extra sure. Which is why I spent over an hour in the exam room, jumping up and down, skipping towards and back from the door. sitting up, and sitting down, and turning left, right left right, then laying on my stomach, then...you get the picture. I kept laughing, but it was exhausting. I hated ( Read more... )

Part of the hedge died and now we can see our neighbors from our window. We used to just be able to hear them, very clearly, something about the acoustics of the house. It feels like they are inside our house, talking to us about their parents health and their sisters ill-advised engagement, ... we know so much about these people, and I'm sure, ( Read more... )

Things that made me cry recently: A grandpa holding his grandaughter and kissing her repeatedly while walking down the street. ( death and aging related ) A children's book about love and trust ( idealism related sadness ) Esme obviously loving Paul so much ( future rejection related sadness ) A netflix show about BBQ, where the chef kept talking ( Read more... )

All of a sudden, esme has begun to clap and wave. The waving came first, and whenever she did it, we did it back. She waves with her whole arm, like Churchhill or Mao Ze Dong. As she waves we say HI or BYE to give the movement some meaning. When she claps, we say Huanying Huanying, like she's a waitress at a Chinese banquet restaurant ( Read more... )

Rant: I understand radical honestly, and I want to believe in it, like when I drink something that begins bitter but if I just stay with it long enough, it will turn into something complex, interesting, worthwhile. But othertimes I just want people to good, to behave unselfishly, to sacrifice a little bit of comfort and dignity for someone you love ( Read more... )

As a part time professor, I got to get my covid vaccine yesterday, in the lowest level of an outdoor parking structure on a Cal State University campus ( Read more... )

You can google a neurosurgeon. If you do, you find out where they went to school, and if they work as part of an university, also their salary, which is around a million dollars a year. You can find reviews people have written about them, which if they are surgeons, are usually exalted. Usually you write the review after your life has been saved, ( Read more... )

Slowly, like a star coming into focus in a telescope, she became a little person, clearly defined in her movements, habits, and emerged day by day wholly, unbearably, cute. adorable. cut-out-our-hearts-why-dont-u ( Read more... )

New Years eve, everyone came over to my Mom's to celebrate. My uncle made lots of food, and my Dad sharpened his knives and made potatoe salad and drank lots. We took a group photo series where he kept biting Esme's foot until she eventually got angry cried and he laughed. The next morning he sent it to our relatives in China. Like, look at me, I'm ( Read more... )