the weekend
Spent another weekend in Livonia. This time I was there to take care of Andy. He got his wisdom teeth out on Friday, poor guy. He was doing really well this weekend, though. When I had mine out I was knocked out for the rest of the day, but Andy was up and around by the time I got there. His swelling and pain was pretty minimal, too, so that was good. He hardly let me take care of him at all. Silly boy. Anyway. It was a good weekend. I've been having a rough time lately (with my lack of sleep and stress and loneliness), and it's been putting a bit of strain on my relationship with Andy. Now my new RLS medicine seems to be more effective. I've been getting my sleep back on track. Something still feels a little off, but I suppose being able to sleep hasn't made me less lonely. We discussed a few of the things on Wednesday and Thursday, so at least that was out. And it was really good to see him this weekend.
I guess I'm just experiencing what a lot of people feel when they realize a huge part of their life is already planned out. Not that I'm unhappy with the plan. It's not even that I feel I don't have a choice in it, because I don't feel that way. I am so happy to have found Andy. I just want it to be everything we imagined it would be. I don't want him to tire of me. I don't want our few differences to drive a wedge between us. I just want it all to work.
So anyway. It was wonderful to see him. It's funny how people take kissing someone they love for granted. I love kissing :) But only pecks for us this weekend :( We watched a bunch of movies. I took him to the video store Friday evening, and we rented Rear Window (wonderful) and A Streetcar Named Desire (a little crazier than I had thought). We also watched Serenity, Hot Fuzz (which I liked very much, but Andy wasn't all that impressed by), SeaQuest, and various programs on the History Channel. We got milkshakes a few times, and went to get him a bike lock. His parents seemed to make more of an effort to be welcoming, and that was appreciated. I tried to take care of him when he would let me, but that wasn't very often ;) Lots of sitting around, but I was glad just to be there with him.
He was very sweet this weekend. I felt very special and loved. I guess maybe that is another thing I miss about the beginning of our relationship. That feeling of being special. Feeling like I'm something to be discovered. I suppose it's the result of the weekends we've had together lately. We've had hardly any time to ourselves. I guess I just have to realize it won't always be this way. It's been a little crazy, but eventually it'll settle down.
But yeah, It was wonderful to see Andy :)