I'm not good enough. I believe this most of the time. I know it sounds absurd. I know. I know I must believe this because of all the other things I think, the way my mind chases me around
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you know what you feel like you're NOT good enough for, so maybe when you turn it around and say, "I am good enough" maybe it means good enough to deserved love from others?
you say you've been impatient and critical and that you've not been the best friend. do you mean to others? or to yourself?
My little sister was picked on in school, and there was no reason for it. she was shy at that time, and i think she was a little bit scared (we were in a foreign country). maybe other kids latched on to that insecurity and chose to pick on her for that reason...i really don't know how certain kids are singled out to be picked on, but it really sucks.
I don't actually think I'm undeserving of love. I know I am deserving though love isn't about deserving. If it was it would just be an exchange. Good enough maybe has something more to do with good enough to attract it, ... Honestly I don't know how this works. I'm not saying it makes sense. Good enough is also about feeling like I'm not measuring up to what I think I should be and what I should be doing.
I have been impatient and critical of others and of myself both.
See I was shy too. Seems like its often given as a reason why people get picked on as though there is a perception that shy people deserve it or something. Maybe it's another bullshit prejudice that ends up fostering violence.
I still believe that I am not good enough some of the time. This I am sure you know. It is hard to let go of after doing it for so much of my life, but it is getting better slowly. I hope we can both let go of it and live in this place of more that you speak of. Love to you.
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you say you've been impatient and critical and that you've not been the best friend. do you mean to others? or to yourself?
My little sister was picked on in school, and there was no reason for it. she was shy at that time, and i think she was a little bit scared (we were in a foreign country). maybe other kids latched on to that insecurity and chose to pick on her for that reason...i really don't know how certain kids are singled out to be picked on, but it really sucks.
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Good enough maybe has something more to do with good enough to attract it, ...
Honestly I don't know how this works. I'm not saying it makes sense.
Good enough is also about feeling like I'm not measuring up to what I think I should be and what I should be doing.
I have been impatient and critical of others and of myself both.
See I was shy too. Seems like its often given as a reason why people get picked on as though there is a perception that shy people deserve it or something. Maybe it's another bullshit prejudice that ends up fostering violence.
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I do believe that change is possible and in fact inevitable. Particularly if I chose it. And I do.
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