Things I currently hate about me.

[dork72002]

My disability. I had this long drawn out conversation with some girl who is in my english class about my disability. I am so tired of looking around seeing what life I could have. I am sick of watching people with ease, picking up their feet. I'm tired of assuptions, looks, and comments. The shitty thing about it is, I don't have a choice. My

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[annika_1186]

i love you. i'm not even gonna say I'm sorry for this and that or any other words of wisdom...cause you're right what she did wasn't fair. But I have to tell you, I think you're an amazing person...you've done so much in your life, and it makes it all the more amazing how much you've accomplished given how much you're had to struggle. I really do feel honored to know you, and you mean the world to me. I just wish I could be there to give you a thousand big hugs. Hang in there sis...I love you!

[blacktyrtle]

Cheryl, you are so amazing and so strong. You're right, it isn't fair that someone else screwed things up for you. You don't have things easy. Sometimes it seems so much easier to give up than it is to try... but giving up won't make anything better.

Chin up kiddo. Things will get better.

[ayesha]

Hi Cheryl, you don't know me but I recently saw your post on the CP group and found my way over to your journal. I am not in your exact situation, but I understand too, because my CP was caused by an asshole doctor that was too busy playing golf to show up on time when my mom was in labor, and then failed to put the monitors on her that would have shown I was in distress, until it was too late. His afternoon of fun resulted in a lifetime of struggle for me. My parents took a similar attitude, "You can get better if you get off your ass and just work harder." Unfortunately that led me to totally rebel and refuse to exercise. Part of me said it's not MY fault I'm like this, why should I have to when it's easier to have someone else do it? I've tried to run away from my body, and often wish I could be a brain in a jar, wired up to a computer. Needless to say, THAT attitude has not served me well either. The reality is that this is the body I/you are stuck with, and we have to make peace with it and learn to live in it, cause it's all we'

LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!

[anonymous]

Cheryl, you are one of my best pals, and I like it when you are happy smiley! I can't say anything that will make you feel better because I obviiously don't know what you are going through entirely. I know some of the annoying stares and assumptions from my personal life, but you get it from a different stand point. One thing I can do for you, more like cause I want to, is sing my heart out, make you laugh, and be there or you WHENEVER YOU NEED ME!!!!!!! I'm sorry I haven't been available lately to talk, but there have been extreme things that have happened in my life that have really hurt me emotionally and physically. I hope that you will give me a call soon, or that I get the free time to call you. THANKS FOR DEDICATING THAT PAGE IN YOUR JOURNAL TO ME!!!!!!!! I still can't believe I'm on varsity softball nor the fact that I'm in high school! Anyways, I better go to bed... practice tomorrow till 6 on top of a full day of school! Love you, call me, and I'll talk to you later!
LOVE, LOVE, LOVE,
Tali