Guilt
Title: Guilt
Fandom: X-Men
Characters: Jonothon Starsmore/Victor Borkowski
Prompt: 48. Guilty
Word Count: 286
Rating: PG
Summary: It’s relationships that bring out the guilt in him.
Author's Notes: Part of my AnolexChamber series.
Jonothon Starsmore was never big on guilt. He’d grown up CoE, founded by a man who’d pretty much just wanted a divorce (and more money and power), and his parents hadn’t been able to instill it into him.
In fact, he hadn’t had much to do with guilt until he’d blown his face off and broken Gayle’s back. Then he’d felt guilt in spades. He was mostly past it now, though he knew it would never fade entirely.
His abortive relationship with Paige had suffered under that guilt. It was easy to see that now. And there was still a lot of regret and anger there. They were on civil terms with each other now, but only just.
His thing with Angelo had been relatively guilt free. It’d been a matter of getting rid of stress, and of being close to someone who understood in a way Paige never could have. They’d been close. They’d been friends more than anything. The guilt had come only after Angelo had died, when it was too late. Jono still missed him whenever he spotted something that Angelo would have found hilarious.
This thing with Victor brought Jonothon’s feelings of guilt to the fore. He was five years older than the kid, who had more enthusiasm than experience. Despite the boy’s assurances, he felt like he was taking advantage.
He knew Frost would kill him for so much as thinking about a student the way he had been about Victor.
But, at always, guilt didn’t stop him.
Fandom: X-Men
Characters: Jonothon Starsmore/Victor Borkowski
Prompt: 48. Guilty
Word Count: 286
Rating: PG
Summary: It’s relationships that bring out the guilt in him.
Author's Notes: Part of my AnolexChamber series.
Jonothon Starsmore was never big on guilt. He’d grown up CoE, founded by a man who’d pretty much just wanted a divorce (and more money and power), and his parents hadn’t been able to instill it into him.
In fact, he hadn’t had much to do with guilt until he’d blown his face off and broken Gayle’s back. Then he’d felt guilt in spades. He was mostly past it now, though he knew it would never fade entirely.
His abortive relationship with Paige had suffered under that guilt. It was easy to see that now. And there was still a lot of regret and anger there. They were on civil terms with each other now, but only just.
His thing with Angelo had been relatively guilt free. It’d been a matter of getting rid of stress, and of being close to someone who understood in a way Paige never could have. They’d been close. They’d been friends more than anything. The guilt had come only after Angelo had died, when it was too late. Jono still missed him whenever he spotted something that Angelo would have found hilarious.
This thing with Victor brought Jonothon’s feelings of guilt to the fore. He was five years older than the kid, who had more enthusiasm than experience. Despite the boy’s assurances, he felt like he was taking advantage.
He knew Frost would kill him for so much as thinking about a student the way he had been about Victor.
But, at always, guilt didn’t stop him.