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well i like doing that thing soo im gonna right why im soo confused and everything
ok so like i said before i listed my reasons, thats not even like a half of it, well i dont want to put all of it cause feelings would deff be hurt and i dont want to do that. But alls i have to say is if i do anything really stupid i just wanted some friends of mine know that im sorry..
like veronica, im not sure if she knows what im feeling..a confused depression but more to that..i love you veronica and if i fuck up anymore..i think you should just forget about me another person is ryan and i mean i know we like dont even talk to each other anymore but i want you to know your like my fucking best friend and im always going to love you..then kevin, kevin was like my frist real relationship. hes the first boy to actually not cheat, or abuse me..besides him theres mark and chad, mark..hes cool kinda faggish but hes still cool.chad..chad is chad? but right now i really think mike deserves a lot, hes wicked nice and like it just seems like i met him, but all of a sudden hes like my best friend, and if it wasnt for him..i think i know where i would be right now..like either jail, or dead so its all mike right there. yes kevin and mark and some other people told me not to do anything but mike just seems like, well actually i know he hasnt done any of the shit i have, so its like a different persepctive..i know theres a lot more people but im kinda tired..and i really wanna think what i sould do over..this is a BIG descision, and i just hope the words these friends have said are as meant how much they sound it.and i really hope i can last until the summer, but if i fuck up like i said to veronica..just dont waste ur time and forget
im so sorry