this family is so fucked up.

I have the best friend in the world, she gives up her friday nights of vegging for me to go to a party where she doesn't even know anyone. She rocks. I just woke up... I laid in the sun today, it was nice i had lost my tan pretty much completly since there has been no sun out :( I NEED THE SUN! I'm going to move somewhere warm when I finish ( Read more... )

Things are getting really confusing, i'm wanting something that I don't think I can have any more, I thought I could... as of two weeks ago... bah. I've been thinkign alot latley, and it's frustratig - the way I think. I write poems in my head, combine beautiful words to make just the right sentance, as if i were trying to impress someone. (this ( Read more... )

It's alot like the 1,000 peice puzzle me and the boys are trying to do. It takes forever to figure out, and alot of struggeling and wrong turns, and once you finially do figure it out - is it worth it? Maybe... it's the journey that you do it for... the getting there that's the fun part. And sometimes it's amazing at the end, sometimes it's just ( Read more... )

Awesome party last night; lots of naked people. I tried to give rachel a piggy back ride, we fell - and got scrapped up, it was the hottest thing in the entire world. Eric got his car hit, poor eric. But it was excellent to get to hang out with him and jimmy and grant of course. My brother left us there - and we had to get a ride back home the ( Read more... )

Today the sadness is just filtrating into me, and I dont know why. I'm having an off day - i havn't had a day like this in... months. I remember in highschool and jr. high when my life was like this. I had this facade that I put on - and you alwyas here people talk about it, the "mask" and your like, psh - whatever that's so cliqe. but no, it's ( Read more... )

I spent thursday through sunday in mankato. He napped with his arm around me when he got home from work, I read my book and watched him sleep; it was beautiful. We officialized that his eyes are more blue then mine, and that mine have a "hint of green ( Read more... )

I save the really important questions for my 8 ball - it never lies. And my 8 ball has said nohting but no the last week. So according to mr. 8 ball, my life will soon be in shambles, i'm pretty excited about this. I'm dead tired, and pissy. how fantastic ( Read more... )

I am one happy bee ( Read more... )

I... start work on monday. I also applied at kohls. I need to buy new glasses, and I need gas for my car. However - i am broke. this is excellent. But come monday, structure, sun, exercise, video games, and lots of fun with 3 little boys will be alllll mine. i am excited. sounds slightly creepy. oh yea, and $$$ ... yes.