As much as I hate to recognize it, I'm such a whiner.  A big whiner of life for that.  I could not thank you enough LJ for sucking it all in.  

I'm in a dilemma.  It's a sorry-state where I can't move on with my life.  I can't move on because of something that I would kill to have.   So now, I will try desperately to go on without it.  I guess it won't help if I will be stuck and delusional from thinking of it every single day.  If it would go on for days or even months more, I would not ( Read more... )

Right now I'm stuck.  I can't get my mind off from the possibility of bracing a crash after a lift-off.  Way too dangerous, for sure.  I thought I was ready for this but I'm completely not.  Mind over matter does not work for all. Sick.

I have been lingering upon possible scenarios in my mind lately.  They are so many that sometimes i'm ending up confused. But what is sure is that I have to make a decision in my career. Not now but a bit soon. I need more and more time to think and a lot of prayers.  It is time to leap forward to a better heights.  It is just time to do so.

2009 was a better year.  It may not be for some but I think the past year was fairly good to me.  I kind of let the year took the pace for me which should have been the other way around. That's why I'm paying back fate by being better this new year and be in control.

Cheers to the new year (a new decade, no less.)  Let's all rock it! 

It is funny how we complain on the things, situation or people we are tired off when we have the freewill to get away with them. It may not be simple but there are many ways on how to hit off button.  It is just a matter of how we really want to get off from those intricacies.  When circumstances foil and pull us from doing it, we could always push ( Read more... )

Few nights ago, I had this dream of me in a car accident. I was driving on my way home along Ayala from work. When I reached the EDSA-Ayala flyover intersection, I could no longer maneuver the car to turn left (as if the power steering died) hence I fell off the flyover and plunged down to the MRT rails. Then, it was cut short so I didn't know if ( Read more... )

I can't help but to be sensitive and an observant cynic from time to time. Especially, when I am in these sucking situations ( Read more... )

Again, there's this strong longing inside of me for something new. But I'm held by my mentality as it tells me to seek for it next year. Yeah but contrariwise, my gut tells me I should not be wasting time. I'm confused ( Read more... )

I think i am more of a failure than a success and I just don't want to admit it.  Too much positivity has made me blind to everything that is going in reality. My hopeful attitude is no longer an asset.  But does turning it around would make a solution ( Read more... )