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While looking around at all my pages and sites that have long since been abandoned by whatever reasons I feel its time for renewal. This particular journal of mine wasn't my original but it was one that i could easily tell the truth about many things and people, vent my problems away, and not have to bite my tongue about the lies i had laid to ( Read more... ) -
bored, lonely, sleepless
So apparently I can update my account, wow I haven't even looked around this site in a while. Still not finished withmy dreary adaptation of my life, which I have been working on. Got a letter from the North Harbor trip last time (b4 my recent overdosage) I can't pay,andnow just 3 or 4 more bills to go, "i'm in debt up to my eyeballs ( Read more... ) -
con't
The cutting wasn't ever a cry for help or a suicide attempt, it was a way to love myself. You see, my biggest problem in my life was my own self-hatred. They say 'you are your own worst enemy' but for me that was the truth to the core. I was an awkward teenager which didn't help, but almost every adolescent goes through a period if being obsessed ( Read more... ) -
im alive
At 15 I was diagnosed with depression. The final straw that pushed my parents to seek psychiactric help was an episode in which I had just gotten a bad hair cut. Being so caught up in image as every tennager is this was no good thing. But not every teenager would have grabbed the scissors, held tight, and pulled them across the palm of the hand, ( Read more... ) -
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im currently taking a break from rearranging my room to relax. funny how i say to 'relax' but i cant relax b/c im in a mood. oh well. im gettin money from rite aid, heh whoo hoo bitches! n im working at the snack shop now. so things are starting to clange n look up n stuff. i even settled beef b/w a couple of friends that used to hate me ( Read more... ) -
updates all around
anyone else notice that i haven't updated much since my birthday? teehee -
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something safe for the picture frame..
so tied up you don't know how she came...
you sign Prince of Darkness
try squire of dimness...
no cigarettes only peeled havannas for you..
rain bows down...
cock your mane...
sufis celebrate...
charts of pain...
bogenvilla my vine twists around your need..
shock me sane...
i'm not your senorita...
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killed my monkey i
let it out to taste the sweet of spring..
we're a bliss of another kind...
im into circuitry...
made of you but not enough for you...
supernova juice...
four horse engine with a power drive...
not kachina...
clouds descending...
fever above my waist...
got a sqeezebox on your knee...
a chill that bends...
try infrared...
you're ( Read more... )
