more pix are up! go a couple of entries down to get the link.

so i am mastering the whole toasty boobie thing in public (thats what bella calls it for some reason). she came up to nathan today and pointed to his pimples and said "look its a nipple!"...lol! nana and papa finally got to meet him and it was so funny, he isnt used to male voices so was obviously fascinated with papa's deep voice. :) they sat ( Read more... )

http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/doubledippkid/album?.dir=/79f8&.src=ph&.tok=phRRkfEBxQNmoA5j

Nathan Gene Torres
Born: 2-27-06
7 lbs 14 oz
19 1/2 inches
prettiest damn little baby boy i've ever laid my eyes on!

i was in labor for a total of 7 hours (one hour pushing)...no epidural even! i am sooo proud of me!

ABORTION ( Read more... )

My life is brilliant ( Read more... )

do you ever stop and just look at the world around you, and realize just how much it changes every day?  i was looking for one of my friends profiles on myspace...and i came across scott's.  wow, i cant believe he is married.  well, wait, i can...its something he's always wanted, and now he has what he wants.  and granted i've cried over it, but ( Read more... )

again with the back and forth.  now i know i have to wait till my little man is born to be able to file for child support (establish paternity and all).  i know he's not going to amount to anything, i knew that a long time ago.  but like i said before, perhaps this is the person (i mean nathan not eliot) that i can give all of my love to.  and i ( Read more... )

i just dont know where to go from here and it sucks. maybe the baby will be a motivation for him...MAYBE. now i'm not the one saying this, he is. i dont fully understand it and it sucks. i'm just going to have to wait for my little chicken to arrive, and get child support. not let him be apart of my sons' life. i cant do that...it cant be ( Read more... )

so here is the thing that concerns me about eliot.  the other day he just flat out said "i want to marry you".  wtf?  i asked him if he was smoking crack and he said he was being serious.  i asked him again if he was sure he was okay...lol.  here's my thinking:  he likes the idea of having someone to take care of him.  its not that he loves me or ( Read more... )