okay so i'm just about to lose it. i mean really, i'm hurting, i'm tired, still working, having to hire a doula, which is going to cost a lot of money that i just really dont have right now. i'm sick of my family (they've helped me out so much and for that i am truly grateful)....but what should the cost be for that help???? i mean really, there ( Read more... )

yeah so this person has no intention whatsoever of allowing me to improve. i'm being kept down. and they wonder why i get so frustrated? i need to get the hell out of here...AGAIN.

okay so my grandmother and our friend gloria drove 3 hours to spend the afternoon with me. wendy and i had already discussed this, i was allowed the afternoon off. there is a certain order that is not due to ship until next week. wendy wants it done yesterday. well, after being given the afternoon off, and knowing what our plans were, i get ( Read more... )

REGISTRY AT TARGET AND TOYS R US IS FINALLY COMPLETE!  ANYONE WANT TO COME TO MY BABY SHOWER?  LEMME KNOW.

so i finally stood up to eliot. i told him not to talk to me until he decided to be a grown up (the kind that doesnt need to have his hand held and wear pull ups...so not a big kid now!). anyways, thats the short version of what is going on. i'm sleepy (cmon, is that really new?) i dont know what else there is i mean, cmon, my life is pretty ( Read more... )

dont fucking patronize me robert. i have tried to be a friend to you and all that trying got me nowhere. you turned your back on me...i wouldnt dare do that to you. i can live without your comments. they are completely unnecessary. yeah it does suck. but so do you at this point.

have you ever just been so mad that you didnt know what to do with yourself? i mean, i'm sooo incredibly MAD right now. i cant do anything...everyone home so i cant just sit in a corner and cry. i tried going for a drive but that didnt do me any good. its raining so i cant really go for a walk around the block...at least if i was at work i ( Read more... )

okay so i finally had it out with eliot today. i still have one final thing to say to him but we will wait until he calls me back...if he has the cajones (ka-hone-ies). lol. yeah i shut off his phone (temporarily cuz otherwise it would cost me too much to break the damn contract). i bet you the dumbass doesnt remember that he is on the account ( Read more... )

so, my body is killing me. i want my baby already. and i still have six weeks left. damn time flies. it seems like just yesterday i was taking a pregnancy test to find out what i already knew. scary. i think i need to just go to bed right now because i ache so much...what i wouldn't give to sleep on my stomach again! work is blah. like ( Read more... )

hey so for all of my buddies out there i finally finished my registry tonight. oy frickin vey! i'm registered @ target. I think I got a little trigger happy tonight though (so much cute stuff!) its under my name and eliot's name, just in case...but who cares about eliot? lol! jk. so if you want to get me...i mean my baby a present...ha ha... ( Read more... )