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These are just a few quotes that I have that re mind me of Jeremy and what I'm going through with him right now.
I trusted you. I thought you cared about me. Not like a girlfriend. I'm not talking about that. I trusted you to be my friend. And then you just disappeared. I couldn't figure out what happened. I felt so close to you and then you were gone. You made me believe in you and then you let me down. Is that how it is with you? Do you let people get close just so you can disappoint them?
I can turn and walk away pretending to be strong because I know that's something you always thought I was. I can run away from all of this and go to a secret place where no one could find me. But I know everything won't be okay, you are the sun, the sky, the grass on the ground, and the air that I breathe. You are something I need to survive.
Is it really that hard to decide what you want to do between me and you? I mean, at one time you wanted me and only me and you say you still do but you aren't doing anything about those feelings. So I guess when you said that I was the only thing you wanted, you lied because I've been sitting here waiting for you and you're not coming anytime soon.
When someone you love abandons you, it doesn't hurt just because they've changed, or lied, or went back on their promises, but because you know what they really are and what a beautiful person they can be. And when they take that away from you and won't let you see that beautiful person again, well nothing hurts more than having someone just decide to take your entire world away without consulting you first
fuck you. fuck you for making me feel like i meant something to you. fuck you for making me feel like i was worth your while. fuck you for being my best friend. fuck you for making me fall in love with you. and fuck you for doing this to me gradually, making me hold on desperately to every last bit of hope i have, hoping that maybe you won't break my heart completely.
dear my old love, i promise to not forget you but not because i loved you, because you taught me that love is never true. you taught me that promises will be broken. that people will come into your life & leave too quickly. you showed me that a broken heart can be broken again .. the pieces just get smaller. you showed me that all the love in the world for one person cannot make them love you back. that once things are over .. they really are over _ for good
My heart is all black and blue from all the abuse it has been through. No more abuse, no more shame, all because my love for you isnt a game...i'm tired of all your lies, and all the crap you say. As i leave my love for you behind, my heart is screaming YAY...yay for no more abuse, no more pain, and no more sorrow....now my heart can heal...but it wont be healed by tomorrow. How could i have been so blind to see...how much loving you was hurting me? I dont care anymore beacuse i am free...free from all the pain, that your love has caused me.