I relate you completely on all that stuff you said up there about J. I went through a lot of that and sometimes I still find it really, really hard to read letters from "him". Lots of talk about "when he gets home" and stuff that I just can't deal with even now. But it will get a bit easier to focus and keep moving on. maybe not easier to accept but easier to.. function and cope?
but remember our pact and remember i love you and remember you're going to come to the Tristate area and you're going to have the funnest time like since.. since.. since UTICA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHOOOAA!!!!
You so wish you had a Borders like the one in Jersey.
I'm not afraid of the letter, I'm afraid of my reaction, you know? There's all these things she wanted to say to me and I'm just not prepared for that breakdown, I don't think. Just not ready for her to be gone, but have no choice.
Pssst, I bet the box will make you smile and feel very warm inside. She loved you. She'd never say something to hurt you. I understand how you're feeling though because I know it will make you miss her even more.
And no, you're not old, you're musically experienced ;)
I'm not worried about her saying something to hurt me. I'm not worried about what's in the box because I think it'll be something negative....I'm just not prepared for my reaction, I guess. I'm having a hard enough time admitting she's gone and now there's this letter....I don't know how to explain it. *sighs*
I don't think I adequately expressed what I meant. And I hope you don't think I was making light of your feelings. Quite the contrary. What I meant was that she loved you so much and every thing in that box, from the tiniest trinket to the biggest memory is filled with her love for you. Forever and always. Her love for you hasn't ended because she's gone. And while it hurts so so much right now, those things in the box from her are to help you get over the hurt and help you laugh and remember your happy times with her rather than dwelling on her passing. **hugs you**
Oh KB...I haven't been on LJ in like a month but I'm so sorry for your loss. I wish there was something I could do or say to make it better, but I know it doesn't work that way. I love you honey. Hang in there.
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but remember our pact and remember i love you and remember you're going to come to the Tristate area and you're going to have the funnest time like since.. since.. since UTICA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHOOOAA!!!!
You so wish you had a Borders like the one in Jersey.
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Whoa. I am READY! :D
You know it sister.
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And no, you're not old, you're musically experienced ;)
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Haha, I like that much better. :)
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